[mythrider]

I have been getting this feeling like it’s too much for me to handle. I don’t know what’s too much, but I feel like the world is caving in on me. I don’t know why I feel like this. It’s just the worst feeling and I can’t shake it off. I’m at a happy point in my life. I’m married, have my own home, have a dog that’s my best friend. Thing is, it doesn’t feel happy, it feels scary. I’m so used to bad things happening that something bad has to happen soon, right?

I have severe anxiety and complex ptsd and depression (depression is probably from anxiety), but a breakdown like this hasn’t happened for a few years. I am trying to find a second weekly therapist (I have one) but everyone I find is booked or not taking new clients.

I just have a fear of asking for help and can’t do it alone, but I have to remind myself I’m not alone. I just hate this feeling. Anyone else feel like this? How do you help yourself? Tips or affirmations?

[Skeezyks]

I'm sorry you're having such a difficult time. I struggle with a lot of... uh-h-h... desolation I guess I'll call it for lack of a better term... life among the ruins... My go-to practice for dealing with it comes out of the ancient Tibetan Buddhist teachings called Lojong or "mind training" primarily as taught by the Buddhist nun Pema Chödrön. The practice is referred to as compassionate abiding. Perhaps you're familiar with it? Here's a link to a mental-health-oriented description of the practice, in case you're not:

https://mindsetdoc.wordpress.com/201...e-abiding-101/

May it be of benefit...