[xmascarol]

Just asking does anyone have this many mental illness? I have them all.Good thing I dont have a split personality.Goodness sakes having a mood disorder is bad enough.When it gets to be really bad I get awful panic attacks I start to shake sometimes I get very confused and cry.I feel like this mental illness is all my fault People tell me it isnt.I know but deep down inside I often wonder at times.I just wish I could be normal however I do know that will never happen.I do my best.Love to you all.

[sarahsweets]

Is split personality a medical diagnosis? What I mean is, is it slang for something or actually the name of a disorder?

Originally Posted by xmascarol

Just asking does anyone have this many mental illness? I have them all.Good thing I dont have a split personality.Goodness sakes having a mood disorder is bad enough.When it gets to be really bad I get awful panic attacks I start to shake sometimes I get very confused and cry.I feel like this mental illness is all my fault People tell me it isnt.I know but deep down inside I often wonder at times.I just wish I could be normal however I do know that will never happen.I do my best.Love to you all.

I was diagnosed with PTSD, Panic Disorder, Mood Disorder, and Cognitive Impairment after neuropsychological testing last year.
Since that time, as things have been discussed and uncovered with my T, I do have characteristics of Dissociative Amnesia, and experience Depersonalization/Derealization. I will tell you that I never expected all this. I just thought I needed some advice and possibly had some physical problems due to the physical symptoms I was having. I was pretty terrified. I went in and out of denial. Just lots of discontent.
My T was like "ok. You have the info, now use it as a guide to gain knowledge of yourself. Don't live in the diagnosis. Use it to your advantage." I adopted this attitude and although things are unbearable sometimes, I just keep that perception in the front of my mind.
It is helping.
Hug. Hug.
What are you good at? Really, I want to know.

Originally Posted by sarahsweets

Is split personality a medical diagnosis? What I mean is, is it slang for something or actually the name of a disorder?

I think she means MPD, or DID

[xmascarol]

Originally Posted by sarahsweets

Is split personality a medical diagnosis? What I mean is, is it slang for something or actually the name of a disorder?

There is a name for it but I am not to sure what it is.Maybe u can look it up.

[xmascarol]

Originally Posted by Nemo1934

I was diagnosed with PTSD, Panic Disorder, Mood Disorder, and Cognitive Impairment after neuropsychological testing last year.
Since that time, as things have been discussed and uncovered with my T, I do have characteristics of Dissociative Amnesia, and experience Depersonalization/Derealization. I will tell you that I never expected all this. I just thought I needed some advice and possibly had some physical problems due to the physical symptoms I was having. I was pretty terrified. I went in and out of denial. Just lots of discontent.
My T was like "ok. You have the info, now use it as a guide to gain knowledge of yourself. Don't live in the diagnosis. Use it to your advantage." I adopted this attitude and although things are unbearable sometimes, I just keep that perception in the front of my mind.
It is helping.
Hug. Hug.
What are you good at? Really, I want to know.

What am I good at.?Knitting and crocheting and I draw a lot not all that great but I use puns so it makes it funny and serious and I have been told that I have a beautiful singing voice. Whenever I sit outside I tend to sing and some of my neighbors said I was very good matter of fact one man said to me once America's got Talent,

Originally Posted by xmascarol

What am I good at.?Knitting and crocheting and I draw a lot not all that great but I use puns so it makes it funny and serious and I have been told that I have a beautiful singing voice. Whenever I sit outside I tend to sing and some of my neighbors said I was very good matter of fact one man said to me once America's got Talent,

Those are all amazingly interesting things! You have a lot more than I could come up with. I think you should do one of those things when you're feeling down to remind yourself of something positive.

[xmascarol]

Originally Posted by Nemo1934

Those are all amazingly interesting things! You have a lot more than I could come up with. I think you should do one of those things when you're feeling down to remind yourself of something positive.

I make slippers ,hats ,scarves and afghans I give them out to the soup kitchen every Christmas .I already have one bag done.

Originally Posted by xmascarol

I make slippers ,hats ,scarves and afghans I give them out to the soup kitchen every Christmas .I already have one bag done.

That is such an amazing thing to do! I bet the people who receive those gifts are grateful. The small amount of things I've learned about you since being on this site let me know you have a kind heart.

[MickeyCheeky]

I'm so sorry you're hurting so much, xmascarol I'm suremany can relate to what you wrote here. You're definitely not alone in this. Many people often have multiple diagnosis! It's not your fault! Things like this can just happen! Please don't blame yourself! Please don't be so hard on yourself! You didn't choose to have MI after all! I completely agree with what Nemo1934 and sarahsweets have already wisely said better than I ever could! I'd suggest to listen to them if you can and want! They always have such great advice! All of those things you've mentioned are just wonderful! Be proud of yourself for that! I completely agree with Nemo1934! Whenever you feel down, try to do one of those things that you like doing! They're all wonderful things! You're a strong, wonderful person! Please remember that! Believe in yourself just as much as we all believe in you! Most importantly, always be kind to yourself and take good care of yourself, especially when you're feeling down! Sending many hugs to you, xmascarol! You're a strong, wonderful person! Please remember that!

[xmascarol]

Originally Posted by Nemo1934

That is such an amazing thing to do! I bet the people who receive those gifts are grateful. The small amount of things I've learned about you since being on this site let me know you have a kind heart.

I believe in doing things for people.I just cannot stand to see someone go without.Even when someone is hurting it bothers the hell out of me.Thank you for the nice comment ,I do my best.

[NervesOButter]

Originally Posted by xmascarol

Just asking does anyone have this many mental illness? I have them all.Good thing I dont have a split personality.Goodness sakes having a mood disorder is bad enough.When it gets to be really bad I get awful panic attacks I start to shake sometimes I get very confused and cry.I feel like this mental illness is all my fault People tell me it isnt.I know but deep down inside I often wonder at times.I just wish I could be normal however I do know that will never happen.I do my best.Love to you all.

Yea. I have Agoraphobia,panic disorder, major depression disorder, ptsd,mood disorder, obsessive rumination and complex grief. It's hard to navigate

[xmascarol]

Originally Posted by NervesOButter

Yea. I have Agoraphobia,panic disorder, major depression disorder, ptsd,mood disorder, obsessive rumination and complex grief. It's hard to navigate

Just like me .It can be so depressing feeling this way.I often wonder what life would be like without these mental illness's.My best friend has nothing not that I want her to but she can go out when and wherever she wants to go,Doesnt even get nervous when she has to go out especially to the doctors.I think to myself why can't I be like that?

[hope2010]

I am glad to be here reading your post xmascarol. I have the same, all this illness. I am in a very bad place right now because of severe anxiety that developed in Agoraphobia. I am not leaving my house alone for the last five months. I am going back to therapy in a month. I am so afraid to go outside, drive, even getting the mail become so difficult. I am very aware of my situation, in treatment for years with very good Psychiatrist and Therapist. I just stuck myself this last winter, unable to move forward. My Psychiatrist changes my medications dose, but still, I am not getting any better. It is complicated because I need to come back to therapy but I am not because of the fears of driving and being outside. The best for all of you. Hugs

[xmascarol]

Originally Posted by Nemo1934

That is such an amazing thing to do! I bet the people who receive those gifts are grateful. The small amount of things I've learned about you since being on this site let me know you have a kind heart.

Could you believe that the church didnt want them/So my friend brings them to the soup kitchen.Some people are so picky.I love doingit and helping people too

Originally Posted by xmascarol

Could you believe that the church didnt want them/So my friend brings them to the soup kitchen.Some people are so picky.I love doingit and helping people too

Going to a better deserved people anyway!

[xmascarol]

Originally Posted by NervesOButter

Yea. I have Agoraphobia,panic disorder, major depression disorder, ptsd,mood disorder, obsessive rumination and complex grief. It's hard to navigate

Why did we have to get all of these illness's all at once?The mood disorder is awful I mean one minute you could be laughing then the next be crying.

[hope2010]

Originally Posted by xmascarol

Why did we have to get all of these illness's all at once?The mood disorder is awful I mean one minute you could be laughing then the next be crying.

I think we will never have the answer to your question. Now if you want to ask about religious beliefs that will be different. I think is genetic. I have everything you have, and here I 'm trying hard to make it one day at the time.
It is so hard. We are doing our best. Hugs

[xmascarol]

Originally Posted by hope2010

I think we will never have the answer to your question. Now if you want to ask about religious beliefs that will be different. I think is genetic. I have everything you have, and here I 'm trying hard to make it one day at the time.
It is so hard. We are doing our best. Hugs

It is so hard.Being afraid all of the time stinks.If u ever need to talk to me I am here for you

[hope2010]

Originally Posted by xmascarol

It is so hard.Being afraid all of the time stinks.If u ever need to talk to me I am here for you

Yes, it really stinks being afraid all the time. I went out today. I did what you suggested, for the first time after a long winter enclosed I walked for about ten minutes around my neighborhood. I think being here was something I knew will push me forward.

I am here for you too. Thank you

[xmascarol]

[QUOTE=hope2010;6496208]Yes, it really stinks being afraid all the time. I went out today. I did what you suggested, for the first time after a long winter enclosed I walked for about ten minutes around my neighborhood. I think being here was something I knew will push me forward.

I am here for you too. Thank you [/QUOTI am so happy that you were able to go outside.I feel like a little kid when people say they are proud of me for going outside.Imagine we have to be proud just for going out,However with agoraphobia you never know when you can go out.

[FearLess47]

Originally Posted by xmascarol

There is a name for it but I am not to sure what it is.Maybe u can look it up.

It is now being called Dissociative Identity Disorder and is largely misrepresented in movies and myth.

I can relate. Anxiety, Depression, C-PTSD, bipolar depression, OCD....the list goes on..agoraphobia, bulimia, panic disorder, body dysmorphic disorder...there have been a lot of titles over the years. And DID is actually the one being discussed now that at first made me feel even crazier...but now, things are starting to make sense.

FearLess47

[FearLess47]

Originally Posted by hope2010

I am glad to be here reading your post xmascarol. I have the same, all this illness. I am in a very bad place right now because of severe anxiety that developed in Agoraphobia. I am not leaving my house alone for the last five months. I am going back to therapy in a month. I am so afraid to go outside, drive, even getting the mail become so difficult. I am very aware of my situation, in treatment for years with very good Psychiatrist and Therapist. I just stuck myself this last winter, unable to move forward. My Psychiatrist changes my medications dose, but still, I am not getting any better. It is complicated because I need to come back to therapy but I am not because of the fears of driving and being outside. The best for all of you. Hugs

I was going to respond with "don't give up hope" and then I noticed your username. HOPE... Having Only Positive Expectations. It won't always be this way.
FearLess47

[xmascarol]

Originally Posted by FearLess47

It is now being called Dissociative Identity Disorder and is largely misrepresented in movies and myth.

I can relate. Anxiety, Depression, C-PTSD, bipolar depression, OCD....the list goes on..agoraphobia, bulimia, panic disorder, body dysmorphic disorder...there have been a lot of titles over the years. And DID is actually the one being discussed now that at first made me feel even crazier...but now, things are starting to make sense.

FearLess47

Thank you and I am so sorry that you suffer with so much.It just isnt fair is it?If u ever need someone to talk to I am here for you.

[FearLess47]

Originally Posted by xmascarol

Thank you and I am so sorry that you suffer with so much.It just isnt fair is it?If u ever need someone to talk to I am here for you.

Thank you xmascarol.