[colby04]

I have been to couseler and a physciatrist and they all say I have severe anxiety. Right now I am on 20mg of Lexapro and 20mg of Buspar a day. I was also given colonopin if necessary. It doesnt seem to be helping at all. I have good days and bad.

I start out noises get on my nerves and start making me ill. Like the children playing and making noise. Sometimes I just feel like I cant take it anymore. Usually I start feeling like all this energy is building up inside of me. It keeps getting worse until I explode cussing hittiing the walls and saying things I would never say normally. Most of the time it is to my wife. Its like I am possesed. I will usually feel like this for a couple or three days. Then I am ok for about a week. Then it all comes back. I found drinking makes me feel normal. My wife doesnt like it though so I dont do it much. I get depressed but I also can be very happy too. Sometimes i feel like it would be better for me to be gone instead of hurting everyone I love. Not physicaly but mentally. I have noticed sometimes stress brings it on. Does this sound like anxiety to you?

By the way I cant spell good either