[MuddyBoots]

Okay obviously I'm cool with music.

But literally every other noise that's not meant to be rhythmic and soothing drives me wild with fear. But if I'm playing guitar and strike a chord wrong I can startle myself. Last night someone was talking outside the apartment. I knew these people, they're not bad people, and they were just talking, but I was crying inside.
I used to love going for walks but now I can't even go outside because of traffic. Last time I went for a walk was a few days ago and a car drove by and I sprinted home and immediately took a cold shower to calm down.
It's worse the louder it gets. When I hear fighting or someone learning the drums or screwing around, I go into a full on panic attack.

This has always sorta been a thing but it's gotten to the point it's getting hard to function lately. What do I do?

I have cptsd. From a serious illness with bacterial meningitis of my brain. A craniotomy was done to remove access left temporal lobe. I have had a seizure risk since. Seizure free 9 1/2 years. Never had one since release from hospital and rehab. I do not like loud noises chaos etc. I have a long list of seizure precipitates. I am back in therapy again and have just resumed emdr. I also like meditation. I have 2 dogs who are documented ESAs.