[teejai]

Worrying myself silly over whether to do a new allotment group that is being run by the lady that does the gardening group i attend at the day centre. Slept very fitfully. On one hand i think i'll like doing it well enough but it's the thought of actually getting there that is putting me off and my mind is going into anxiety/paranoia overdrive with worst scenarios flashing through my head. It's the fear of getting lost that's really doing my head in. Not helped by the fact they seem quite blasé about the fact i am scared about getting lost and don't realise how much of a problem it is for me.For example a few months ago i took a wrong side turning because i was preoccupied on the way back from my doctor's surgery and ended getting myself well and truly lost.
It took me over 40 minutes of frantic toing and froing hither and thither in an increasingly agitated and hysterical state to find my bearings and then even it was more akin to if a blindman fires enough bullets he'll eventually score a bullseye.
It's even worse in unfamiliar places.
Also is it worth forking out 15 odd £ for a pair of boots needed to do the group(which i won't wear otherwise) if i can't cope with the anxiety of getting there in the first place?
Then on top of that i like Shirley and i know she'd like me to do it which is just adding to the whole thing of not knowing what to do for the best.

The whole thing is doing my head in.I hate situations like this. They make me feel very tense and not well.Too many things to think about and consider.

Fighting the urge to go on a booze binge.

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[RozG]

((((teejai)))) i know how you feel coz i'm agoraphobic and rarely leave the house alone...but you know as well as i do a booze binge isn't the answer...the help and support of friends...whether IRL or online is the way to go!

sorry you had such a bad night but hang on in there...you're not alone!!!

[teejai]

Thanks Kalamity.

[Perna]

teejai, you can't get better at being lost and finding yourself without "practice". You DID find yourself and DID get back home, etc. Happens every time.

I think you should do the gardening thing, I think getting there and back home will be worth it to be mucking about in the dirt and growing stuff. I had an allotment when I was living in Washington, D.C. Get the boots and a little lawn chair! Sitting and doing a little reading outdoors in the garden, nothing beats it. I had the landscapers who did my back lot last year put in a little raised bed in front for my veggies too. I just planted some lettuces and will plant the rest of them today and some bush beans. . . It's very exciting watching food grow

[BalishBun]

Hey, we all have a bad night. Hang in there and I hope all gets better.

[jurplesman]

I have a feeling that this is caused by anxiety attacks, when you body tends to overproduce adrenaline out of proportion with the actual need.

If you read about the underlying biochemistry of anxiety attacks excess adrenaline is produced when the brain senses a energy starvation. Adrenaline causes the blood supply to the brain to increase, thus in a way anxiety attacks is a defence mechanism. Take edible GLYCERINE obtainable from most pharmacies or Health Food Stores. Take one table spoon of glycerine and mix in a glass of water, with a dash or lemonade to improve taste. This will supply sufficient glucose to the brain to stop it from triggering adrenaline release. Search our web site for GLYCERINE. Take it before you go to the events. It also helps in sleeping.

This is a management technique, but the real treatment is treating anxiety attacks.

Beating Anxiety and Phobias

and http://www.hastingspress.co.uk/hypo/
http://www.alternativementalhealth.c...poglycemia.htm