[thelostone]

i spent the day before yesterday in my closet. i really scared my hubby i think. he convinced me to come out to go to bed, but i have been really fighting the urge to go sit back in there since then. the good news is i finally have a pdoc appointment early in july. they are going to do a med evaluation. i hate meds, take xanax just enough to cope, but it is taking more lately to work. i don't want to take something that makes me numb. was on lexapro for a while and the ONLY thing i felt then was the anxiety. it did slow down the actual panic attacks, but i was more anxious the rest ofthe time. hopefully i will be able to get a T without having to sit in the waitng room for hours after i see their pdoc. they don't normally make appointments apparently. does anybody else ever sit in a closet? is that really wierd? the worst of it is i don't even know why i want to sit in there.

lost

maybe you just want to disossiate with everything and everybody? If i had a closet big enough i would probably go there every now and again just for some peace .... it doesn't sound wierd if you have something traumatic going on, i hope you feel better soon, and you shouldn't have to sit for hours in a waiting room, i can't do that either, i have to stand in the corridor a lot of the time, i hate being so close to so many peeps in such a small area, i'm better in the hospital where it is more roomy, but still hate it.

I wish i had a closet big enough to hide in, like in the american movies .... i'd never fit in mine hugs, Jinny xoxoxoxoxo

keep us posted hon.....

[DePressMe]

I have not been in my closet in some time, but I have hung out there in the past. I started doing it when I was a kid. Doing it as an adult makes me feel a little strange. But, it makes me feel safe to be walled off from the world--like nothing can get to me. It cuts down on the stimulation--sometimes the world is just too much and being in the closet keeps it all at bay. So, don't think you are the only one who has sat in a closet. If it helps you to be in there, then maybe it is not such a bad idea. True, you don't want to be in there so much it interferes with your life, but maybe to take a short break from the world until you learn some better coping methds. hang in there...

[CedarS]

Awhile back I did end up in the closet when I was really scared and overwhelmed. Needing to cut down on over stimulation was a big part of it.

Now if I had that urge I might try wrapping up in a blanket first, maybe using ear plugs if noise was getting to me, and I'd use some sort of fun distraction - in my case probably an involving book.

Good luck with it all.

[Rissie_and_another]

i sit in my closet when the voices want me to do bad things. or when i want to be safe

[thelostone]

thank you all for the replies, glad i am not the only one. i guess it feels safe in there, weird thing is i am also claustrophobic so i have to leave the door cracked so i can see out. i am not sure what drives me in there most of the time, but hubby gets really freaked out when i do it and wants to know why i am in there, hard to explain to him when i don't know myself

lost

[Rissie_and_another]

yes lost i was sitting in mine one time. in teh corner. adn my dad came in adn llookked at me like i had 5 heads and screamed"wha the hell is wrong with you????!!!" it hurt me, but i still go in

[MyBestKids2]

Before my kids came home last year, I used to sleep in the closet. My husband would get so mad because he didn't understand. It was where I needed to be then, wasn't hurting anyone.

I wish you luck with your Pdoc appt next month. Hope they can help you with the right medications.

Good luck,

Dee

[thelostone]

thank you guys, and rissie, i am sorry your dad yelled at you.

lost

[nightbird]

you know lost, some of us sit in other places too... i might sit in my bathroom to escape.

i've heard lots of others do that too.

It's all the same thing really, just copping a squat in a safe place, to think or not to think, whatever we need to do.

peace and love,
nightbird