[hopestheory]

i hate hate hate ocd i can't take the thoughts and the incesent checking of my hands and body for signs of illness. i literally think i'm losing my ming i can't control it anymore and i'm even on medication. i feel like this will never get better b/c it only seems to be getting worse. if anyone else suffers the same way please talk to me i'm freaking out.

-nicole!

[Mahali]

I do not know if I feel the same way. I have OCD symptoms but they are different. I do know they can get better and will talk if you would like to.

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[hopestheory]

thank you for that i am a pure-o-type of ocd and its taking its toll on me lately. it literally robs all the joy from my life. i have compulsive tendencies too but not nearly as many obsessions.

[Mahali]

I am very new to this posting. I would be willing to listen and lend any support I can. I have had anxiety issues for a long time and have learned to cope with many (most of the time. lol). If I can be of any support feel free to talk and I will listen. For instance, explain pure-o-type, would you? I feel king of dumb asking but how else can I learn, right?

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[hopestheory]

pure-o means like you obsess over really inrtusive disturbing thoughts of for example mine are either me doing bad things to people in my sleep or people doing bad things to me in my sleep and the thoughts become all i can think about over and over over and i associate them with a certain object or word and when isee that word phrase or object i freak out and i'll start obsessing and/or praying about it again. i also arrange things on the floor in my room over and over in a certain way so that if i were to get up or sleepwalk or do something like that i'll trip and falla dn either wake my self or someone esle up. and then when i wake up in the morning i check the florr over and over to make sure that nothing i put there the night before was moved. i also don't like to touch anything that is unfamiliar or foreign b/c i have an overwhelming fear of contracting HIV so if i do touch something wierd i'll check my hands and body over over for signs of illness or blood or anyhting out of the ordinary, i check them until it feels right. i also make sure the bedroom door is locked everynight by touching it over and over. just things like that but the pure-o type really is purley obsessing over intrusive thoughts that to start out with i know there out of reality but i cna't help but worry and obsess over them.

[Mahali]

Nicole,
This must all be very difficult. I wish I could make everything easier for you. I will listen and help as much as possible. You said you were on medication and I can only assume this is not working very well. I do not know a lot about your type but am willing to learn and help if possible. Has it always been this bad or has it gotten worse over time? I do not want to bug you with too many questions but I would like to be able to support you and if I understood better then maybe I could be of more benefit when we chat.

My OCD is mild (very) compared to what you describe. I keep trying to find ways to limit it's effects on my life. I can relate to not wanting to touch anything another person has touched. It is not so much HIV worries as it is just human by-products that freak me out.
I have had anxiety disorder for a long time and do know that much of it can be overcome and even put to my advantage at times. I hope you can hang in there and find ways to get some of the joy back in your life. What types of things do you enjoy? If I can help let me know I will do what I can.

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