[soledad1]

I had an accident driving my father's car last month and now they are leaving me messages to talk to me about what happened I've all ready talked to them once and I am so nervous I just want to hide which is what I am doing right now. And I don't KNOW for sure what happened. I am so anxious my mind is running overtime and I am playing and replaying what happened. And I feel guilty if my dad's car insurance rates are raised and I am verging on scrupulosity re am I telling the truth about what happened?? I just don't know anymore. So I have the computer on my phone line and my cell phone turned off like a great big baby. I am just not going to call them today. Sorry. I hate phone calls. Why can't they mail me a form to fill out or something. And there is a part of me that feels "crazy" like my word is suspect anyway because I am so anxious which of course they have no way of knowing. And I was so stressed out after it happened I didn't dispute anything the other driver said at the time which was a mistake. I was just trying to be nice to her. Just venting here..........I have extreme social anxiety and I don't see how I can handle this. It is humiliating in the extreme.

[misty]

Humilliating yes but facing up to our responsabilities, no one ever said it was always going to be pleasant. At fault or not, talking to the insurance co. is best. If you were not at fault do not let them sway you differently for they will try there best to convince you you were in the wrong. If you are at fault own up to it. Yes it sucks but it happens. If you were out of it and really don't know than it will be what it will be. Hiding will only make things worse one way or another.
Larks

[soledad1]

I called them. I think it was a good strategy to wait and talk to my therapist first. I just wish I could have relaxed while I waited. The thing about social phobia is that I feel or imagine being humiliated when that isn't the reality as in this case. I've tried CBT in the past but obviously I need to work on it some more. People have no idea how debilitating severe social anxiety is.

Thanks for the reply Larks. I appreciate your support. And I'm really glad it's over with