anxiety for no apparent reason?

My best friend just left my house about 10 minutes ago. We spent about 3 hours today talking about the past, mostly about what it was like in school as children. I was fine at the time she left.

But now, I am struggling with another anxiety attack. Part of it, I know, is that my husband is bringing over his older two kids... my stepkids... for the weekend. I love them dearly, but it is stressful for my little girls with all the crazy excitement.

I don't know why I am even writing about this.. maybe to help me think through this. My fingers are tingling, my stomach tight. Not quite as bad as a ptsd episode. I am trying to let this feeling just flow over me, like my therapist suggests, not trying to push it away or block or hold onto it. It is hard to change a response that has become reflexive.

Just musing, I guess.

((((((((((obsids)))))))))))))