Just being in the same room triggers...

Yeah, haven't posted for a long while...I'm being stalked on the internet by my own family members. Anyways, I haven't been on good terms with my father lately because apparently "I'm the one causing trouble"

So a few days ago, out of nowhere he flips out on me, right in front of my grandfather (mom's side) and threatens me. So I just had a HUGE panic attack, ran upstairs, grabbed my cigarettes and sat outside in the freezing rain for a good four hours. In the first hour my grandfather came looking for me with a flashlight and asking me to come in before I get sick. Truth be told I was already sick to my stomach. I declined and said "I'm Fine, leave me alone please."

Another hour and my mom actually came outside around 11:30pm to find me and begged me to come inside before I got sick. She knew me and him must have gotten into it.

I stayed outside until 2 or so, and by this time my body was numb since I was sitting on the cold cement in the rain. I actually popped about a 100mgs of Seroquel and fell asleep while sitting outside.

Now when he enters a room, we don't talk, but I keep getting severely anxious as if somethings going to happen. I have to leave or my face starts twitching.

I haven't told my T yet, but I don't know what to do in the meantime...ideas?

gosh i know how bad those attacks can be. sorry you are having this go on right now.
i think it would be a good idea to call your T and get an earlier appt. other things might be trying to avoid situations at home with your dad..like time yourself out of the home when he's there until he's settled in. know that may not be possible but any way that you can not be there will avoid another confrontation til you can get this worked out with your T.
sorry i don't have any other suggestions but i'm sure you will find others can. we care. glad you posted about this.

I agree with madisgram it would be a good idea to call your T and get an appointment as soon as possible. Have you ever thought of having a "family session" to get things out in the open in a safe environmennt? That might help...

Best of luck, meccorad!!

~Christy

They would never agree to a family session, because as far as they are concerned, there's nothing wrong with them...which only makes me feel worse. Ironically I rely on my parents to provide me with the money to talk to my T, so I don't feel comfortable asking for more money....

i think the family session is a good idea even tho your parents say there's nothing wrong with them. this is about helping you. could you consider that approach with your T and ask for a family session?