[Polperro]

Please beware this could cause a trigger (I dont know/cant see the trigger icon)

A good friend of mine has been suffering from Cancer for sometime, he died this week and I have been meaning to see him for the past two weeks and I NEVER MADE IT GRRRRRR....., I want to talk to him but I can't

I feel so guilty not getting to see him I've not been able to sleep properly
I've been awake for what feels like 30+ hrs

I've been using the site alot today to try and distract how I feel, but everytime I settle and when I Leave the site to try and sleep the anger/guilt just comes back.

I just dont know how to settle !!!

Could do with a hug

[gimmeice]

(((((((((((( polperro ))))))))))))))

I am sorry for the loss of your friend. Something that has worked for me in the past with the kind of emotions you are feeling is to write a letter to him, I know you can't give it to him but maybe it will help you to get your emotions out. Sorry I don't have any better advice, here are some hugs.

[Polperro]

Gimmeice Thankyou for the advice, in a way I've already done that I was writing a letter to him but sadly never got round to finishing it at times even the smallest task takes an awful lot of effort for me to do.

But hey I got about 4hrs sleep last night so thats a bonus, do not feel quite so emotional this morning but still feel pretty crappy but without the really bad lows so far.

[ihateit]

Originally Posted by Polperro

Gimmeice Thankyou for the advice, in a way I've already done that I was writing a letter to him but sadly never got round to finishing it at times even the smallest task takes an awful lot of effort for me to do.

But hey I got about 4hrs sleep last night so thats a bonus, do not feel quite so emotional this morning but still feel pretty crappy but without the really bad lows so far.

My Grandmother died a year and a half ago. I loved her very, very much. From when I was young she practically raised me. Even took me in my senior year (of high school) when my dad was having problems and my mom...blech...wouldn't because of her hubby.

I then joined the military and was in for a long, long time. Was stationed far away a lot, and it was hard to get to see her. When she passed away I hadn't seen her in 8 years. Hadn't talked to her in 2 years. I know your pain, and am so very sorry.

What helped me, I talked to my mother, she told me Grams knew I loved her and that she was at peace at her impending death (she knew it was coming). That helped a lot. Yet, I still cried a little, because I was pissed that I hadn't talked or seen her in years, but was comforted by my faith, that she was now with God in a better life...I have a very strong faith, and I know she's in place where pain and sorrow and disease ... all that ... don't exist anymore, and that really comforted me, as cliche as it might seem.

I hope you feel better soon, if this person was a true friend, they know you loved them.