[aking2]

I have been on first Paxil for a dx of anxiety for three years. Doc added an Rx adding Wellbutrin two years ago. He said that I just wasn't balanced and that the W should give me tons of energy!!!!! BS!!!!!!!!!!!
One year later, i.e. last year, the wife divorced me because I wasn't getting any better and to her I obviously didn't care to try.
Then three months later, by chance, another doc dx's me with ADHD. Now it all makes sense!!!!!!!!!!!! I whole life wasted!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I have tried Vyvanse, Paxil, Wellbutrin, Prestiq, all to no avail.
Someone tell me that it will be okay. That it is not hopeless for me. Depression makes it almost impossible to get out of bed each day. I only manage it because I need to work in order to have a bed to not want to get out of!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Arrrrrrgggggghhhhhhhh!
Drew

[DePressMe]

Drew, I was also diagnosed as ADD when I was an adult. I too felt like I wasted a large part of my life because I did not know about it or understand it. And, yes, it does get better.

[kikki27]

Originally Posted by aking2

I have been on first Paxil for a dx of anxiety for three years. Doc added an Rx adding Wellbutrin two years ago. He said that I just wasn't balanced and that the W should give me tons of energy!!!!! BS!!!!!!!!!!!
One year later, i.e. last year, the wife divorced me because I wasn't getting any better and to her I obviously didn't care to try.
Then three months later, by chance, another doc dx's me with ADHD. Now it all makes sense!!!!!!!!!!!! I whole life wasted!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I have tried Vyvanse, Paxil, Wellbutrin, Prestiq, all to no avail.
Someone tell me that it will be okay. That it is not hopeless for me. Depression makes it almost impossible to get out of bed each day. I only manage it because I need to work in order to have a bed to not want to get out of!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Arrrrrrgggggghhhhhhhh!
Drew

Oh i can relate Iam now 28 years old and was dx with adhd recently .My life seem to be wasted cause It was hard for me to finsh tasks like finshing college and sticking with anything I also was on paxil did not work had very bad sweating and wellbutrin did not work either .Depression is a very sad thing to cope with cause it comes with sadness and mood swings and fatigued .But Iam taking ritalin and thats helps with my adhd .huggs keep updating on how you are doing.

[adhd43]

Originally Posted by aking2

I have been on first Paxil for a dx of anxiety for three years. Doc added an Rx adding Wellbutrin two years ago. He said that I just wasn't balanced and that the W should give me tons of energy!!!!! BS!!!!!!!!!!!
One year later, i.e. last year, the wife divorced me because I wasn't getting any better and to her I obviously didn't care to try.
Then three months later, by chance, another doc dx's me with ADHD. Now it all makes sense!!!!!!!!!!!! I whole life wasted!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I have tried Vyvanse, Paxil, Wellbutrin, Prestiq, all to no avail.
Someone tell me that it will be okay. That it is not hopeless for me. Depression makes it almost impossible to get out of bed each day. I only manage it because I need to work in order to have a bed to not want to get out of!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Arrrrrrgggggghhhhhhhh!
Drew

Drew,
I feel your pain bro I am 43 and have just now been diagnosed with ADHD, I have been on cymbalta and klonipin for over 3 years which started with my last divorce which was my second. Before cymbalta they tried every anti-depressant on the market, which is about the time I started having panic attacks!! Go figure. They now have put me on concerta for the adhd which seems to have helped but I still have terrible bouts of depression and for the first time in my life have had thoughts of just ending it. The only thing that has kept me from following through is my fear of going to hell!!! lol I am the son of a preacher and have tried to turn to god and asked for help but yet here I am!!!! I will say I have been through some low times in my life and have made it through and it does get better. In the past I have numbed myself with drugs and have given that up so this time around I have to learn to deal with life on my own. I know I sound like a cliche and hate when people tell me it will get better mostly people that have not been through **** but I have and it will. Keep fighting!!! All I know is that I have been more messed up since I have been on RX drugs then ever before and am determined to get off them some how!!!

[Vita]

In addition to Ritalin for ADHD, I am on Lamictal for my bipolar disorder (often misdiagnosed as unipolar), and it feels great.
At first the dose was too low - felt better, but got depressions. Now I am increasing it. Actually, it has lifted my normal mood.

[SenatorPenguin8081]

Originally Posted by aking2

I have been on first Paxil for a dx of anxiety for three years. Doc added an Rx adding Wellbutrin two years ago. He said that I just wasn't balanced and that the W should give me tons of energy!!!!! BS!!!!!!!!!!!
One year later, i.e. last year, the wife divorced me because I wasn't getting any better and to her I obviously didn't care to try.
Then three months later, by chance, another doc dx's me with ADHD. Now it all makes sense!!!!!!!!!!!! I whole life wasted!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I have tried Vyvanse, Paxil, Wellbutrin, Prestiq, all to no avail.
Someone tell me that it will be okay. That it is not hopeless for me. Depression makes it almost impossible to get out of bed each day. I only manage it because I need to work in order to have a bed to not want to get out of!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Arrrrrrgggggghhhhhhhh!
Drew

Hey bro, it's not hopeless.
I was first diagnosed with Dysthymic Disorder ("Dysthymia") which is a form of chronic low level depression. I took Zoloft, Wellbutrin, Celexa amongst others-- This went on for years. NOTHING WORKED.
I kept getting into bad relationships with girls that just weren't right for me because of my ADHD. Many of them took advantage of me and I was too foolish to see it (rather untreated ADHD blinded me). I was almost married to one, someone who was super narcissistic and I lost everything I had because of that. That was like a year ago.

I discovered I had ADHD after a year of fumbling around in college (I'm still in college and I also work). I stopped all the anti-depressants and started seeing a psychologist (a therapist) who dx'd me as ADHD with an anxiety disorder. I was also depressed at the time due to everything. Not being dx'd or treated properly takes its toll and causes depression.

I take Vyvanse for the ADHD now, but I have taken Adderall XR in the past and it worked okay too. I think a problem is getting the right dosage. I also think you need to see someone-- a therapist to talk to who can help. Why go it alone?

Also perhaps your Vyvanse isn't the right drug for you. There is Ritalin formulas, Dexedrine formulas, Adderall formulas... also the right dose is important. I think for instance my Vyvanse is too high and I don't feel well. I don't focus I turn into Mr. Roboto.

Do you have insurance that will cover a therapist?