[Mouse_]

I'm not been dx as ADD, but always have had my suspicions...every ADD test I do I score high :-( ...

I take remeron and find that though its not aways needed for depression, the sedative effect helps me....my mind is still racing, but its like I dont care...

My husband is home from work this week and decided to decorate our bedroom, and I walked in from work and the messssss. I flipped, I felt so ungrateful but I had a chance to talk to him after my explosion and tell hime that I can't put it into words how clutter/disorganisaion makes me feel panicky...its like I will never be able to get on top of things again...my fear I have is one day I will be old and alone and unable to sort my home out and will just sit powerless as the clutter builds and builds...

Theres times when I attempt to do housework and my husband says, take a deep breath and do one thing at a time do not tackle it all in one go...and that works at the time...you'd think I'd remember that, but each time the housework builds up its back to sq1 again...

Why does "Mess" do this?

[Perna]

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its like I will never be able to get on top of things again...my fear I have is one day I will be old and alone and unable to sort my home out and will just sit powerless as the clutter builds and builds...

</div></font></blockquote><font class="post"> Yes, I'm beginning to deal with that feeling for real now that I'm 57. The only thing that actually works for me for awhile is working on it instead of "thinking"/feeling about it.

[chaotic13]

Maybe its because when the To Do List gets too long, it becomes overwhelming. For me if I have too many things to get done, I get overwhelmed and nothing gets done. I spend too much time trying to figure out which to do first that I eventually get lost and say the hell with it. One thing that work very well for my lack of organizational skills is to create a list. Then when I am feeling overwhelmed, I just go in to check off mode and don't waist time trying to figure out an order.

As for the future... *&^% it! I just have to down size, hire a maid, befriend a neighborhood kid, move into a retirement community, or pray the I become too clueless to give a crap. Since I am fairly forgetful already at 40, that's not such a stretch.

[Mouse_]

I think its that my insides get caught on the outsides...my psyche is the one that feels unmanagable at times..

[Perna]

My GAD kicks in now. I'll notice dust on a doorframe in the middle of the night and picture the "old and alone and unable to sort my home out and will just sit powerless as the clutter builds and builds..." and go to town with that. In the daylight it doesn't bother me as much but yet also bothers me because if I notice/wipe that dust off then there are only 52,345 other doorframes :-) So I go back into "don't notice" mode. If I actually get the duster and start tackling the 52,345 (includes room corners where spiderwebs seem to accumulate) I'll be in the middle of that task and notice something else "equally" as important to do and have trouble blocking. I'm a good all or nothing thinker. Think about it all and get anxious or suppress thinking about it and get anxious.