[BadWolfC]

I finally feel like I can believe that sentence now. After all the things I've had to deal with in my life, I finally feel like I can tackle anything life throws at me. I think most of it has to do with finally having someone who really believes in me, my wonderful fiance. If it weren't for him, I don't think I'd be anywhere close to where I am now.

In my lifetime (I'm 22), I've been hospitalized twice for suicide attempts, and I had tried 3 other times that no one found out about. I felt like I wasn't meant to be alive since I was 12 up until the end of last year. I was constantly in emotional pain, I could feel the aching in my chest every day. But somehow, that's gone away in the past 8 months.

I don't want to say that my fiance saved me, but I think he kind of did. He's made me aware of a part of myself that I didn't even know existed until not, a part that believes that everything is going to work out for the best, whatever that might mean. I'm not afraid to wake up in the morning anymore. I'm not afraid of myself anymore, I used to think I would hurt all the people close to me somehow. But I'm not now.

I hope that I can always remember how I feel right now. That this will always matter this much to me. And I hope that everyone else out there can find their peace in some way, as I have.

[healingme4me]

[veron]

I'm so happy for you that you can see that it is all working out. It sounds to me like you were really suffering for a long time and now you deserve to feel well. You always deserved to feel well.

It is great to have support in your life. I split from my husband for a while and my doctor was so delighted when we got back together as he felt this would be a great help to me in recovering and it was.

You sound like a sensitive person when you say that you were worried about hurting people. Never worry, period. Life has a habit of working out if you remember to enjoy it. People get over hurts anyway . None of us are perfect and we all make mistakes.

I'm sure you are a lovely person and I wish you continued good health.

[ccmimi]

I hope things continue to be good for you xx