[Slick399]

This is so confusing. To try and describe it is all that I can do to make any sense out of it. I am feeling elevated but down at the same time. Is this what is called a mixed bipolar mood? Does anyone have any experience with this? How is it possible to have two moods at one time?

[sweetpea_tx]

Trust me... you can. Mixed is no fun, but to me, I personally prefer it to being straight depressed... I can at least get some things accomplished. But I'm anxious and irritable and all of that. My head is still a mess of thoughts and all of that and if I do get up to do something, there's a chance that I won't do it because I come up with another idea and forget the original plan. I'm waiting to level out... I've only been back on meds since Tuesday. I feel for you... I'm in it up to my eyeballs right now.

[Slick399]

Thanks, Sweetpea. You have confirmed what I suspected was going on. Your comment that you might start one thing but get sidetracked by another idea is what I have been going through, too.

Good Luck with your meds and best wishes for feeling better real soon.
Thanks, again.

Slick

[RDRK]

I had this experience once when my Aunt died and I was supposed to speak at her funeral. It was crazy... I was high on speaking and getting all my thoughts out on paper and sharing with all, but I was depressed because of her death, and I knew I was coming down from my manic phase. I had spent a lot of time the week prior with her hospice care and her death was expected. It was so bad that I didn't finish up my speech until 10:30 a.m. and I was supposed to be at the church at 11:00 a.m. I was there at 10:50 and looking a little scattered. And the pastor was looking just a little nervous. I think this has been part of my Bipolar for years... living on the edge and just a buck behind schedule!

And... I didn't stop taking my medication. I thought I was doing quite well until two days later I really crashed. But I was back up in my manic phase within the two days and it lasted for six days with little sleep. I crashed then and was really in a funk. I called my pt and they changed my medication right away.

Isn't it scary when we can know what is going on and how much we want to be healthy. Good luck Slick... and I really like your encouraging replies that I see through out the postings.

Have a great day!

[Slick399]

Thanks, RDRK. What you have just described with the ups and down is exactly what is happening to me except the days of depression or hypomania are shorter in duration.

I can't believe how much this forum and the kind people who respond has helped me feel that things are going to be bearable, AND, the level of compassion and understanding that I am getting is something else.

Thank you to everyone for your vote and words of wisdom!

Slick

[Martina]

I think I had a mixed episode at the beginning of last summer. I had an "almost" suicide attempt - got really close to doing it then drove myself to the ER instead. But then at the hospital I was really happy, bouncing off the walls, doing crazy things - they gave me some magazines, and I ripped out the pages and taped them to the windows in my room. Yeah, I was weird. I spent $200 on some prescription sunglasses - and I wear contacts. I was supposed to be going to a psych facility in Arizona but then the money didn't work and I didn't go, but I bought the sunglasses for that. Anyway....I think that was a mixed episode. Suicidal and crazy at the same time!

[Slick399]

thanks for your input, Martina. That had to have been a very scary time for you. Hopefully you are doing much better now! Hang in there.

Slick