I think I am getting worse

I'm on lamictal, but no where near to stable. They have to raise it very slowly because of a possible deadly side effect. So I just started 50mg today. But my moods are insanely volatile lately, not to mention the thoughts I've been having.

I responded to your post about what happened today. Sorry you're going through so much. It will take time (which seems incessant when you're depressed or out of control), but you will get better. (I keep telling myself this because otherwise I'd lose it.) And everyone else assures me it's true too. Again, stay in touch and I'll let you know if I ever get stable too.

We can do this together.

Better today but still really snippy at my husband. Why is he such a trigger for me. I am trying to get a t-doc appointment for this week since I am done with the partial program.

We'll se what tomorrow holds. I am like the weather. If you wait a minute, it will change.

Indeed. That's why I hate it when people ask me how I feel. It's too complicated to explain. I could feel great, then they'll argue with me minutes or hours later when I feel terrible that I couldn't feel that way if I felt great in the morning. So I say "I don't know yet." And it makes me irritable to even be asked.