[Amazonmom]

OOOPS there goes my stable mood!!!!!!

HYPOMANIA is HERE!!!!!!!!!!!

I knew my sleep was going to ****. One cannot sleep three hours a night without something happening. My pnurse caught on, but I sorta lied to her about my sleep pattern so she would leave me alone about hypomania. I WANT hypomania. I am taking my Lithium though, I don't wanna get so far that I piss off everyone I know and can't do my job.

I guzzle caffeine, talk a mile a minute, my thoughts come pouring through my head, its GREAT. Sometimes I can't concentrate on anything for very long though. That's why I haven't been very active here lately because I read a post and forget what it said while I am trying to respond.

I have an appointment with pnurse tomorrow, and I don't want her to find out about the hypomania. But she is smart and will probably figure it out.

Maybe I will CANCEL! Take some Zoloft! OOOOH that is so tempting....

[Yoda]

Are you sure it isn't mania rather than hypomania? You probably know your symptoms better than me but I find I sleep decent when I am hypomanic and poorly when manic.

[thinker22]

I'll second that title! Your hypomania sounds like mine. I got 3 hours in the past 39 and no sign of slowing down. I made chiles rellenos for the first time tonight and they and the sides turned out great! That batter is the trick and so fun and cool to make.

I've even been honest and emailed everyone in my network of support and no one is suggesting I do anything about it unless it turns into something else.

[Amazonmom]

I am not as bad off as when I took the Zoloft way back in March. Pnurse said hypomania then, so I think I am still ok.

I have decided that I really don't want to find out what full on mania is like, so I will try to be good and not take the Zoloft or drink too much caffeine.

Oh, but how I love feeling on top of the world. I actually like myself when I am in hypomania....and maybe I won't have to finish the work I started with T last week....

[thinker22]

Like I was telling a friend in an email. This sounds dumb, but I feel like a cross between Wonder Woman and the captain of the universe.

I've been taking in too much caffeine too...but not much more than usual. Drinking is back down, so no problems there. I'm just freezing my hand with an ice cube so it doesn't burn so much.

Bring it on, world!

[Pughead]

I hear you loud and clear. I've been on the upside of the mountain for a couple weeks now. I got absolutely ZERO sleep last night, not one second of sleep. And I feel fine. I only drink a cup and a half of coffee in the morning. And I haven't been having any problems. Except a couple days ago when I ate McDonald's and it made me feel like a POS. Then I started having some anxiety on top of it so I took two xanax and it put me down pretty good.

But yeah, I've been wired. Getting tons of stuff done, and doing it well. All kinds of different stuff: work, play, school. I want to do it all!

I feel guilty posting about it here, when so many people feel like crap. I usually only post when I feel like crap. I wish everyone could be on this side- but not out of control of course.

That's another thing, when I'm up like this, I'm aware of it now. I do a better job of staying away from the dangerous behavior: impulsive spending, quick decisions without considering the consequences, etc. I still drive like an idiot sometimes though. That's a hard one for me to quash. omg I just said "quash". Meds probably help keep me from going overboard too.

I don't wanna tell my pdoc...he might change my meds or something to bring me back down. Hopefully we all stay under control.

[thinker22]

I think eventually I'll want a full night of sleep, but my sense of well being is so high, why bother to change anything? I'm with you.



I got about 5 hours last night, so I'm rearin' to go. Yay. I love driving.

[rkba97]

I'm on Zoloft, Lamical, and Xanax very recently... I do agree that hypomania is better than the alternative (depression), but then I know that when I'm feeling so good, it's all gonna go downhill shortly thereafter. I'm trying so hard to try and recognize warning signs, but even if you do, what the heck do you do to prevent it?

RK

[Amazonmom]

Ahh....think the hypomania is gone now.

I slept 9 hours, drank less caffeine...went to therapy...
Therapy always kills my good moods.

But I did go work out at the new employee gym after my therapy was over. I may be a loser freak bipolar, but I will be a smokin' HOT loser freak bipolar!!!!!!

[thinker22]

Hehe...smokin' hot. Turns out Seroquel, in addition to making me depressed, weak, shaky, and sleeping all the time, actually helped me lose weight because I didn't enjoy eating much in that state. Now that it's gone I'm putting back on some weight. And I'm not eating more or less that I can tell, but food does taste better.

So eventually, if I keep feeling good, I too will have to exercise. I got home from the drive a while ago only to find a stack of forms from both the state and the fed to fill out for disability in the mail. I was already a bit tired driving back, but these forms totally overwhelmed me. I started to look them over an fill in a few things, then I grabbed a beer and pretty soon my eyes were telling me I need some sleep, this is too much trouble. So maybe the crash is coming. Dammit...the hypomania didn't even last long enough for me to start writing again. Well, I could be wrong by tomorrow, though. I often have days where I start out feeling fine or good in the am and my mood deteriorates by the afternoon. So who knows. But I definitely need rest.

Sorry your mood is back down. Hope you feel a little up again soon, but not so high that...you know the rest.

Peace out.

[Amazonmom]

I don't even know if I am down...it's more like being a normie. Bad stuff makes me feel bad, good stuff makes me feel good.

The therapist herself is great. I love her to pieces. It's the material that is killing me. Hypomania makes me not feel the icky stuff. All I feel is one long adrenaline rush.

Stupid Therapist. Why did she have to bring up parental transference? PFFFT on her. I want to stop taking my lithium to see how nuts I get before she stops me.

[thinker22]

Bad 'mzon mom! Haha. I'm kind of mellow now...but there are benefits to this mood.

I'll a see ya tomorrow. Oh yeah, forgot to mention. Have an appt tomorrow w/a new p-nurse. She called me while I was in another state and apparently works on Saturdays. Weirdness. Hope she has a sleep aid that doesn't kill my buzz.

[Amazonmom]

Yeah! New Pnurse!!!!!! If a male nurse is a Murse, does that make a pnurse a Purse?????

I love my Purse LOLOLOL

I guess testing my Purse to see if she will stop me from going too nuts is further proof of the transference crap.

Sleeping more always signals the end of my buzz. Damn I wish I could get up the guts to take my Zoloft leftovers....

There are HUGE benefits to being hypomanic...like sex drive, actually cleaning my house, working out....

[thinker22]

I like that...purses

I kind of want to take my anti-anxiety leftovers to get some sleep (Ativan). But I haven't taken anything I'm not supposed to be on, only gone off of Seroquel.

Hear you on the sex drive. I seduced my mate last night.

Want to play and run and dance and sing. Do I really need to sleep? Probably...I know my bod can't repair itself unless i sleep, but it's like man, I gave you a friggin' year to do that, what more do you want?