Missing the mania

My NP upped my Lamictal from 150mg to 200mg and I am not liking it! I miss the mania. I miss the amazing feeling of being able to do anything at any time. I miss feeling like I am amazing. I miss feeling like I am beautiful.

I know I can't, but I want to go back to the 150mg. I don't wanna feel this mellow.

Is this bad?

I must have a really bad case of mania or hypomania because I'm on 300mg and still hyper as can be. Waking before 5 am, going to sleep at midnight (and this on Abilify, Risperidone, and Temazepam). I have tons of energy and racing thoughts, etc.

Don't wish for anyone to feel down. So sorry you're going through this. Maybe one of your other drugs is doing this, but if you're only on Lamictal, it may not be the right drug for you if you're feeling down. Then again, 200mg is the lowest therapeutic dose, so it may take a couple more weeks to feel good on it.

Just a thought. Mellowness...hmm...reminds me of something Amazon mom said...that she felt "dumb as a rock" on it. She got the Lamictal rash, but don't be paranoid about it unless it actually does happen. Then go to a hospital. Take care of yourself only, okay?

I felt dumb, but mood wise I was probably the most stable I have ever been. I would have gladly continued the Lamictal if not for the rash. Which is totally rare so don't freak about that! What's funny is that I was on only 100 mg a day when I felt much better. I also was on 900 mg of Lithium per day.

Another thing Lamictal did was get rid of my depressed mood I have when I get up in the morning. I'm always depressed until about 1 pm, then I feel like a human being LOL.

I know what you mean, Amazonmom, and welcome back! Not that you've been gone long, but I did miss your postings.

I fear I'll be put on Lithium too if Lamictal doesn't stabilize me soon.

But I have the reverse problem. I seem to be high in the morning and evening and have a lull around 2-4 or 5 in the afternoon. When I was depressed, I felt bad in the morning, though.

Onlyme, definitely talk about your change with your dr. Sorry if I'm repeating myself.

same thing here, felt like mania withdrawal. life without passion, blah how boring! but the cost were to high for the high.
i added Zoloft wk ago. I'm feeling much better, even had some hypo mania for a couple days, i needed that fix. but the 200mg of lamictal is keeping me level. we'll see what happens when i'm up to 50 mg Zoloft.

Thank you for the responses, I really appreciate it!

It is very much so like I am bored. I will talk to my Dr. if it still bother me. I am trying so hard to find something to do. Hmmmm....

I'm bored too. My eyes are too tired to read or play video games. It's still dark here! I'm always up before 5 these days. Now it's 6:13am. Zzzzz I wish. Big snorefest here.

I am right there with ya. I am always up before my alarm goes off. I have tried going to bed later in the hopes I would sleep longer, but that doesn't happen.

I have TONS of video games, but none I have the desire to play.

Sounds like you have the opposite of snorefest! Maybe.... hyperfest!

Right you are. But I've got to fill my time with lame introspective projects for the most part because I can't focus to read or play VG (and don't want to anyway. Feels pointless even if I win). It's just boring was all I was saying, but once I start a project, hours fly by.

Today I worked a lot in Excel. Made a compare/contrast chart on Mania vs. Depression in last month, one with exercise additionally, one with hours of sleep only (mostly from data of quizzes on this site, but also from my own journals). I made micro and macro ones. One for my notebook and one for either my T or P-doc. Chances are the T won't even look at them. He's more in to talking than reading things.

I take a walk, I make food, I eat, I drink, I post, I do random things and it's eventually 9pm. But really, each day feels like 3 or more. It's like, "That happened this morning? Really? Thought it was over the weekend." There are things I wish I could do but I can't sit still without fidgeting. You know how it is.

Argh...(mateys) I need to calm down and sleep but I don't want the associated depression...they are related in my case.

I hope the Zoloft works for you!

Zoloft is my "in case you need mania NOW" plan...