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Hi all! I am new here, and technically have yet to be diagnosed as bipolar. I have always pretty much been in denial about mental health problems. I used to think that people used them as an excuse to justify their actions. That is until the last 3 months when I have absolutely been out of control and at the complete mercy of my emotions. I have come to a point where I fell like I need to be bound and gagged to prevent myself from messing up my life... I have seen a p-doc, but after all of a 15min. visit thinks I am simply depressed. I SWEAR this is wrong. I know what depression is and this isn't it and doesn't fit all my other symptoms. When I started reading up on bipolar disorder I got super freaked out.It is like someone is writing specifically about me. I showed the info to my mom (who herself was reluctant to buy into the idea of me being bipolar) and she was shocked. My family always characterized me as very "gemini": I love you one minute hate you the next, etc. so she's fully convinced now. Now all I have to do is see some therapist who will believe that I am experiencing what I am. But I did have a question, while looking back at different times in my life I can see distinct manic and depressive episodes, but currently feel very mixed. Any one have mixed episodes ? any idea's on how to deal with them? I was also wandering how the medications/treatments and event he diagnosis has helped or changed things for any of you. I can see how I most likely have been bipolr all my life, but it has never been to the extent where I feel I have no control over myself...any advice is appreciated!
Thanx

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[goofygirl]

I'm right with you... everything you said about the way you've felt here lately. I too, get seen by p-doc for 15 min every 6 weeks, he thinks I'm borderline and depresssed... therapist, fam doc and self think that I'm bipolar, as do my closest friends and a few family members (the ones that know that mental illness is not a form of plague)

Hang in there... we are in the same boat!

i was diagnosed bi-polar in Feburary..i have mixed episodes. a psych doc dignosed me and prescribed my meds.....xoxo pat