disorder or me?

My emotions turn on and off like a light switch and can be extremely hot and extremely cold depending on how someone treats me is this part of my Bipolar or is this a trust issue that is me?

Welcome Sole searching,you have a cool name, I think most of us on here are doing just that, soul searching. This is a Great Place, everyone on here is very caring and helpful.

What do you mean by hot and cold. Manic and depressed??? Or angry and numb???
Maybe part of being bipolar is having trust issues?
Maybe the trust issues are stemming from your past?

Do you have a T? It might be a good thing to explore in therapy.

Sorry for the rapid cycling between hot and cold.

hot in cold in the sense that if someone hurts me i can pull away and it not bother me at all like it should, and then when iam happy being clingy and don't want to be away from them

That sounds like a really difficult phenomenon to go through but I don't think it is part of your bipolar. But I am not a doctor.
It sounds more like a personality disorder. But I am not a doctor.
If it is really severe and interfering with your life or is extremely distressing, you really need to talk to a therapist.
Best Wishes and keep posting and keep us up to date, k?

I'm not a doctor either, and I don't know if this helps or not, but you are not alone here. I do this exact thing. I can cut people off without a second thought when I am down and they say or do the wrong thing. It is definitely an attribute of atypical depression ("having a more intense reaction or increased sensitivity to rejection, resulting in problems with social and work relationships" from webmd.com), and from the reading I am doing I'm learning that it's also part of bipolar II. Then I find when I am back up again I am super clingy and want to talk to them all the time. I think it has to be related partly to the bipolar, but I have also wondered if it could be a personality thing. I've talked to my therapist about this a lot. She thinks it has to do with how I was treated as a child and/or just a coping mechanism to keep people from getting too close. Of course, when we talked about it I didn't have the bipolar diagnosis, just depressive, so it's still a work in progress for me.

Thank you everyone for your responses Secret Spirit I think your on to something there I notice it more when iam depressed and i don't notice it at all when iam manic. The other thing i have notice when iam depressed is i start calling everyone in my phone book just to talk to someone is this normal?

I think it's understandable and a good idea to reach out and get comfort when you are depressed.

As far as it being normal, not necessarily. Some people withdraw when depressed.
Some do. Some don't.

Berries makes an excellent point here; some do withdraw when depressed and some don't. It must just depend on the person and their experiences. I withdraw. I cannot even imagine calling anyone when I am depressed. Although I personally think it is a brave thing to do- sole searching, good on you for reaching out for support when you need it most.

On a lighter note, some of the best advice I've ever gotten was from a pdoc who told me to forget comparing myself to 'normal' because I am never going to measure up. He was a funny guy. And for me, an excellent point. Now that I've embraced how different I am I worry much less about what people think of me and for me that spells F-R-E-E-D-O-M!