[NLITEN]

Well I went off my antidepressants (which I was perscribed cause my p-doc thinks I am depressed and doesn't know much about BP). But it was my accient. I was taking them like everyone kept saying I should (and since Ihave been the last person to be in any position to make any decisions lately - i've been inclinced to listen), even though they were starting to make me SERIOUSLY depressed. I went to yoga, listed to the teacher talk about how the only thing that's really ours is our inner sense. THat got me thinking about what inner sense, when my entire life (outlook and plans for) change completely with my moods. They propelled me to wondering what part of me, if any, was really me? When I couldn't come up with an answer I got further and further DEPRESSED!!! Who goes to Yoga and leaves Depressed??? (on any other day in anyone else's life, that might seems strange, but something tells me some of you out there can relate to that). The next day I woke up with food poisoning and couldn't keep anything down for days, including my antidepressants. After I was well I still didn't (haven't been taking the,), and finally feel out of the grips of depression. This is so great cause I have a HUGE presentation and project I need to attend to and cannot mess it up now or it may ruin my plans for the immediate future ( not to mention make all the work I have been doing over the last several years be for nothing). I could so use a manic spell now, and without those anitD's in my system, that's what I am getting. <font color="purple"> </font>

[goofygirl]

Just be careful... I agree, the highs rock, but the last time I cycled without something to break the fall when the high was gone almost made worm food out of me. Saying the high and the low were night and day doesn't even cut it... it was AWFUL! I'm going back into an upswing, but with the benefit of being back on antis now, I'm not so scared. I've got a few people to "watch out for me" so if I do crash like last time, they'll do what they gotta do to take care of me.