[gravyyy]

So I have an appt tomorow morning with some counselor here in town. Anyone who read my last post knows that my appt this past Thursday with a new pdoc was dreadful (called me a liar, basically kicked me out of the office.... i didn't lie and she's stupid). I am now scared to death of this appt tomorrow. The good thing is that it's in the early morning so I won't have much time to think about it but I am having such bad stomach cramps right now from my nerves and I'm so nauseous.

To make matter worse, my close friend from college (we graduated in the same nursing class) has dealings with this lady I'm seeing in the morning and he says she's a real B**** and he thinks our personalities are going to clash. Great! And he knows and, plus he a phenomenal psych nurse so I believe him... we'll see.

I'm thinking of just going in tomorrow morning and being like, "look, I can't take another session like this past Thursday where you people ask me a bunch of questions that leave me exposed and vulnerable and thn stomp all over what I say and call me a liar and tell me that you can't help me." I just want her to be up front. Maybe I'll just ask from the start if there's any types of clients they don't work with and if I fall into that category then I will just leave.

ANyway... sorry for the long post... I just needed to be able to post and clear my head a bit... between the stomach cramps and diarrhea and nausea and the raging headache I'm like ready to scream! I'm so scared. Please, please, please even if you don't reply to this send me onequick sentiment of good luck in your mind. Thanks!!!!

[Gioia]

Good luck gravyyy! I'll be thinking of you. Hoping you manage to get a good nights sleep. Have you got any relaxation techniques/yoga you can use to try to calm the nerves?

Perhaps it would be helpful to write down the things that you want to say today and take it with you. If you're reading it might keep you more focused, give you something to look at other than the counsellor, and you won't forget to say what you want! Perhaps explain what happened and then your fears?

I don't know if this is helpful or not, just want you to know I'm thinking of you and sending a big

xx

[looking4polaris]

Good luck! Meeting with new docs and trying to get a new regime set-up is soooo stressful. Here's hoping you can relax enough to get some sleep. Maybe you can sleep in and leave yourself just enough time to get up and get to the appt...less time to worry that way. I'm sending you anti-nausea/headache vibes. Do you get migraines (you mentioned a headache)? I asked my GP for a standing script for anti-nausea meds to go along with my regular migraine medicine...I think they may be my most useful med even more than my psych meds Cheers to you and here's hoping the lady's not a B****.

[lonegael]

((((Gravvy))))) give me her adress and i'll go get manicky all over her if she's not nice to youSeriously, I wish you luck. That is not ok behaviour from a professional. Huggs, and courage!

[gravyyy]

Thanks everyone for your thoughts last night and today... I just got back from my appt with that new T. She's not fantastic but she's soooo much better than the pdoc was. I explained to her right off the top that I am really upset about the experience last week. She was totally professional about it and wasn't trying to bad mouth the pdoc back so I appreciated that. My friend wasn't right at all about me and this T having a personality conflict but she doesn't look like the typical therapist I would see either. I have a session scheduled for the end of next week so we'll see... this session was getting the nuts and bolts and doing a ton of paperwork for both of us. Thanks again though.... I don't have a support system here at home so it's nice to be able to post here and have such positive people lifting me up all the time.

[perpetuallysad]

I think you did a good thing by just coming out and telling her what happened last week. It keeps you from making yourself vulnerable again and then getting stomped on. I'm glad you think things will go better with her. Even though she seems different than what you normally are used to, maybe it will be a good thing and she will be able to help you!?
I am glad this visit went better than the last, I hated how the other lady treated you.

[Gioia]

So pleased to hear that you had a much more positive session with her than you expected. Well done for being upfront, hopefully this will benefit future patients of that particular pdoc as well as you.

Thinking of you and wishing you best of luck for future sessions with this t.

x