Depression Clouds Gather

Well, it is happening. The grey clouds of depression are gathering. Stuff I think about is filtered and changed so it seems I can only see my thoughts in the worst light imaginable. But as long as I am self aware that this is the case (because I have gone through this so many times before) it makes it a little more bearable. I am temporarily waving goodbye to my uber energy and sad that my silly jokes have run off for a while to play in the sunshine where they belong. I am gathering together my support network (sisters, mental health care team, this forum, friends and cats). I would like to say that just because I am depressed does not mean I do not want to hear frow you all. I DO want to hear from you all. I probably will be reaching out a lot less, but that does not mean I am not reading and caring and thinking of you all, it just means my ability to send positive feedback is impared for a little while. If you could, I could e a little positive energy right now. Thanks for listening and being here for me.

*twirls for you - my skirt has bells on it*

I like hearing bells on my skirts and bags. They make me smile. Hope with some time out and some really nice cuddles you'll be back bouncy in a nice way in no time. :-D

Hey, no trouble. Silly jokes or not, we wan to hear from you. Keep remembering that depression is coloring your thoughts, and you'll pull through. I still laugh when I see your new avatar! Huggs and pass some to your network!

Fire_Star, my cats have bells on their collars! Thanks for your happy words of encouragement. ......... Lonegael, I like my new avitar too. It reflects my personality better than the strung out cat look I had going on for a while. .................. To my readers, my friends, remember this too shall pass and I know you all will help by keeping the encouragement coming. If I happen to be working on something with you personally, please do not stop pming me, if it get's to be too difficult, I will let you know.

((((NuckingFutz)))) I'm always here for you. Day or night.

Dear Nucking Futz,

You stated so eloquently how I've felt since my depression has worsened. Yes, I liked jokes and having a good time, but it's left me now for sometime. I have hope that it will come back to me and this depression is only visiting me. Best wishes to you.

[QUOTE=perpetuallysad;1265985]((((NuckingFutz)))) I'm always here for you. Day or night.[/QUyou know, I already found that out, but I never tire of hearing it.wthank you sn much! Hugs to you.

(((Hugs))) I hope the depression is not a deep one and the clouds disapate quickly to reveal sunshine and warm days.