Rainy Day

Today = Monday & Bank Holiday
Weather = Cold & Rainy
Work =

I don't like Monday's to start with, but when you add on the rain, I just want to go to sleep. Not to mention, there's hardly anyone here in any one here at work.

I also think that my brain just hasn't wanted to work in general. It's not like there's nothing going on up there, but I have been consumed with thoughts of guilt and second guessing everything I do.

Oh, I am a BIG second-guesser and I am quite often distracted at work by an invasion of thoughts. In fact, I am easily distracted anyway. I have to keep a fan running by my desk to block out noise so I can focus. Maybe you were just having a bad day. Hope today was better.

dj - you know the right things to say - your pretty gifted at this help thing!

QA, are all your thoughts coming at you through that negative filter called depression or has it been just today. PC has a mood tracking tool on here somewhere that you can fill out and track your moods. Since I can't see it on my cell, could someone else be kind enough to post where it is? Hope this helps!

I use that tool already. I also use one on www.facingus.org which is sponsored by DBSA. I also have a mood journal on my Blackberry.

Now the chances of me actually using these are around 50%. I've just been super busy these past couple of weeks, and I haven't really had the opportunity to rationalize what is actually going on. I went to my T yesterday, and I came to realize that I'm actually doing pretty good in comparison to where I was 4 months ago. I just have to stop being so critical towards myself, which is really hard when all you really know is criticism.