Feeling Depressed and Anxiouos

I take Abilify along with my Effexor XR (which I didn't think I was on...) and had a reaction to the Abilify. I was just taking 2.5mg, increased it to 5mg because I was so down (5mg is what was my original dosage, but because I had reactions to it I had to cut it back to 2.5mg.) Well, we had to cut my dose back again to 2.5mg and now I'm feeling really depressed and down again. I know, or at least I hope, that it will pass soon and I'll just be back to feeling blah instead of near tears and depressed all day long. I'm crying just writing this!! I get so frustrated and don't know what to do! I'm still in my pj's and don't have the energy to do a darn thing... I'm afraid my husband will get upset with me. He called and got me up this morning saying it was time I got out of bed (it was 9am) and I felt so bad that I slept so long - he told me he had already made 3 of his 5 stops today on this route load and I felt even worse because he's been up since 2am this morning. He always makes me feel guilty - I think he is running out of patience with me.... He's getting more vocal and puts me down just a little each day and it's not helping me at all. And yesterday we got another denial for my SSDI.... That was the frosting on the cake! I just went down hill last night - he noticed and was extra caring and wouldn't go to bed until he knew I was going to be okay. I don't think he means to make me feel guilty but he's been getting worse each week... even blowing up at me in front of my best friend (and only friend). I was so embarrassed I wanted to just crawl in a hole and die!! I know I have to let it go - but I tend to hang on to all the negative things that happen to me. I don't feel that I deserve any thing good in my life because I'm such a burden to my family... I just don't want to be anymore... I pray everynight that God will take me in my sleep - but I wake up and have to endure another day. God want's me here for a reason - I guess to endure more and more pain. But why - I've never hurt anyone. But God must feel that I be punished so I have to live in pain every day.

I'm sorry for the ranting and pity party - I don't mean for this to sound like a pity partyl, so in advance, I'm sorry.

Sometimes it helps to vent it all out. I hope you get to feeling better soon. Maybe it's time for a med adjustment? Do you have a T you can talk to?

No T, put a psych. I may call him today and see if we could find something diff than abilify. But with my asthma he said there wasn't any other med he could give me. I may give it a few more days and see what happens. Maybe call him on Friday if I'm not better. Thanks for listening - I so appreciate it, BNLsMOM. Thank you

That's interesting about asthma. Did he say what the problem would be? Is it a reaction to your Asthma meds? I may be developing Asthma and my p-doc mentioned that Singulair doesn't really react to many of the psych meds at all, so that may be what I'll use if I needs meds for asthma. I jsut need an appointment with my md, although I may have just had a cold. I was having trouble taking a full breath without coughing. The last two days have been better although I am waking up and having to hack up a lung to clear out.

Keep posting with us. Let us know how you are doing.

please please rant away! meds can really screw with us, really they can. so don't worry .

No he didn't say what the reason was - just that if I had asthma Abilify was the only other way to do. I'm really drug sensitive and allergic to an arm long lenght of meds... I can usually just tolerate childrens doses of cough syrup and such.

I hope you get to feeling better soon and sleep better tonight. Sorry about your cough - I bet it hurts coughing that hard. Thank you for your support! (I was on sigular and it didn't have any side effects for me - it worked, but they pulled me off of it after a couple of years and gave me Advair, which I do have a sever reaction too! I need to get with my pulmanary doc and tell him. It's been over a year since I last saw him. Oops... I'll call him today and make an appointment for next month - have to wait that long he is so popular!) Again thanks for your well wishes. Am beginning to feel some what better.

Glad youre feeling somewhat better. Just wanted to send some good thoughts your way. No one deserves this pain just keep working with doc and treatment and hope for the best. Again glad your feeling a lil better.