[grizmom]

I woke up crying. I dreamt of SO many people last night, and I was yelling at most of them for not understanding my illness. My mom and dad, my sister, my grandma, my childhood friend and her family, my ex and his family...and my dreams are always so vivid and real! I wouldn't be surprised if I talked a lot in my sleep last night.

I think the dreams were triggered because I talked for a long time on the phone last night with my cousin; we have just recently gotten back in touch and we went to elementary school together, so we were talking about things that happened in the past and we were both complaining about family members who don't understand us and don't try to understand us (she doesn't have a mental illness, she has a physical illness - spina bifida and kidney failure stage 3 - and she is in a wheelchair).

So I'm feeling a little more depressed today and I'm really tired since I didn't sleep well; I toss and turn a lot when I have dreams like that. Plus it's cloudy and rainy outside so that doesn't help either.

[englishteacher]

rainy here too...can you catch a nap to make up for some lost sleep? I understand about family not understanding. It's a nightmare when those who claim to love you and want whats best for you do not, can not, or will not understand who you are! I try to let it go because the negative energy doesn't help and I can't change it. Remember the serenity prayer...

God give me the strength to fix what I can and let go of the rest and the intelligence to know the difference....or something like that.

[RRU96]

I hate that your going through this grizmom. It is really difficult when the dreams start getting effected because there is really no control we have over them. One thing I did when I was kid and prone to nightmares... I would think of silly little things as I drifted off.. like... counting sheep... but..Make each one of the sheep tie-dyed... or maybe...think about your cousin and how nice it was to be able to catch up.

As for Cloudy days..that can be miserable... but whenever the rain does go away... even if just for a few minutes... Walking outside... and being able to look at the world with your eyes Wide open is pretty soothing. Without the sun beating down and making you squint. Listening to the birds sing for you.... regardless of who you are or what you may be struggling with, they sing.

4-leaf clover treasure hunts are also something to turn a cloudy blah day into something a little more fun.

[grizmom]

I did manage to take a nap, and I do feel better...it stopped raining and the sun came out too I played a new computer game for awhile (I love bigfishgames.com) and now I think I'll go down to the laundry room and put in a couple of loads...thanks for the support; I was really down this morning!