[BNLsMOM]

I am starting to feel like I might be going down. I have had moments of feeling overwhelmed and that tends to bring me down.

I just got home from vacation where I felt relaxed and had, I would say, about 80% stability. I don't really count it because I was virtually stress free, but it was nice to feel.

I have been home for two days and today was the first day back to routine with the kids.

I started feeling down about the house being a mess, dealing with homework woes with my oldest, and my almost three year old who has decided that he "NEEDS" everything and isn't satisfied unless I can control gravity and sunlight. (Those powers would be nice, but I just don't have them.)

Anyway, I have felt pockets of wanting to not deal. I don't want to fall in again as last Spring and Summer were traumatic at best.

I wonder if I can fight this, or do I let it just wash over me and know it will be OK on the other end?

Ugh.

[Anneinside]

If this continues, you need to contact your doctor to stop it from getting too bad. But, you know that already. So best wishes, I hope you improve in the next few days.

[musikcrazy]

It is hard to come back to the reality of everyday life. I would check with my pdoc to make sure everything is ok. I also take Omega-3's as they have been shown to lift your mood naturally. They are also safe with meds. Hang in there and keep posting.

[BNLsMOM]

I take Omega-3's too. I want to say this is just vacation let-down. I have an appointment with my T on Wednesday so I will talk to him then. I can always call him if things go bad.

[pondbc]

I think it is a reaction to the stress of the vacation. However pleasant it was, you are off your routine (sleep, food, etc.) and you react to it. Give yourself a chance to reorient yourself.

[Lauru]

Wishing you the best. I have suffered from a recent downturn. So far it's been a couple of months. I think I am beginning to see a flicker of light on the other side. But who knows. Check in with your pdoc and let him know what' s going on. Sometimes you might be able to stave it off. (((((BNLsMOM))))))

[grizmom]

I also think that it is just the sudden push back into "real life" that is getting you down. I was also wondering, on vacation did you get outside more (more sunlight, more fresh air, more walking?) Because if you spent a lot of time out in the sunshine and such, going back to being stuck in the house can make a HUGE difference. I'm glad you will be seeing your T soon, and I guess I would give it a few days or a week, and if you aren't feeling better or you start to feel worse, get in to see your pdoc for a possible med adjustment. Good luck, I hope things get better soon!!

[WendyAussie]

One thing I have started to do when I am feeling the way you are is to document, either on a notepad or in Word and save the file, is "What are the things you are doing well?" "What parts of your life are going OK right now". It's all about reinforcing in the mind those tracks that are about the positive things and leaving less space for the things you feel you lack (or where others feel you lack).

But we always need to be in close contacts with our psychdocs and T's as well, and any other support mechanisms. As you are identifying triggers early, which is really good in itself (my T has been working on that with me), you can take proactive action in maybe getting an appointment earlier.

[IndigoRose]

Wendy's advice is really good.