I Hate it

I hate it I hate it I hate it.

I Have decided that the only way I am going to be able to retain any kind of sanity is if I get away from all human beings.

They suck you in and blow you out without any regards or care for your feelings.

SELFISH SELFISH horrible ppl... I am so angry.

For anyone that doesnt know, I have just ended a relationship I had with my T.......... the horrible twat made me think I loved him....arghhhhhhhh

Now in the cold light of day I am left reeling and can feel myself heading down down down.

I just came off a high and felt kinda normal for a couple of days and now I feel the onset of a dark depression,

Arghhh I dont want to go there again. GOD GIVE ME STRENGTH to do this again. I dont know if I can keep doing this.

WHEN WILL IT EVEN END.

now my tinnitus is blaring

sorry about that.... I have calmed down now

Allme, dont be sorry. Youve been through so much. Glad youre feeling a little better though. Keep posting if it makes you feel better! We want to help you through this!!

Thanks I have a habit of feeling sorry especially after I have unloaded....

Hang in there allme.. this whole process is very long and very frustrating. Don't give up on therapy just because the relationship between you and your T has ended in a seemingly negative fashion. There are lots of Ts out there and some are good and some are bad. Tough to tell until you start working with them. Keep your head up and take good care of yourself.

I hope you are doing OK today. I have only been in therapy for a year, and have only had one therapist, so I don't really know what you are going through, but I imagine it must be very difficult. I am here for you.

Posting is a great way to deal with the anger and frustration. No worries about expressing your feelings. That's what we all are here for. I am sorry about what happened with your T. I can't imagine how frustrated you must feel. Take care of yourself and give yourself time. You deserve it.

hi,(((allme))) please just hang in there, the best part of bipolar is the moods are guaranteed to change,it wont last. i also feel this way quite alot, and can empathize with how you feel. your in my thoughts,okay take care Allme