...let me begin this by saying I'm not a pessimist...(thanks for letting me begin by saying that )...

anyway I was staring at the floor like I do sometimes, for about two minutes waiting for the two minutes to be up so I could move onto the next two minutes, might be an add thing or just me is all weird like?

it occurred to me that I can't remember the last time someone else ruined my day? ...damn I hope they don't decide to do it today...I mean I know a couple people who ruined my life but thats another thing...but seriously, its always me I believe who makes a mess of my day if there is an opportunity.

...my mind goes places that no medications on this planet can prevent, thats why people went to the moon...looking for other drugs...now they want to go to mars and it's all about finding water but gotta have a drink to wash down the new drugs they find?

I make efforts to make my day a good one as best I can but it can be such a battle and having a mentally ill brain make all the interpretations along the way sure makes it a tricky battle.

I know I used to blame the world and everyone on it including some of the fish and it's so tempting to do this still but at the end of the day it's always me thats pooped at my party somehow and someway...

but it's ok

[ChristySpirals]

heh heh. you said poop heh

...one of the funniest sounding words around Spirals , poop! hehe

[Seaswept]

Me too, I'm my own worst enemy.

...well I proved my point in bizarre fashion!

I left home after writing the above thing yesterday to do some work and was in reasonable spirits...suddenly paranoid I would be crushed by a truck in the traffic but fine anyway!

I'm on this persons roof and had no idea I would be on this persons roof because I communicate poorly and I could have borrowed a ladder from somebody but I hate asking for things at any time...

getting on the roof was not so hard but getting down was gonna be a problem but I did notice a kids trampoline in the backyard so kept that in mind as the solution though I was not looking forward to that!

...finished cleaning out the gutters and stuff made my way to where the trampoline was and it was not close and I thought "oh crap!...thats a bloody leap that is, surely I aint gonna do it am I?

next thing I'm in the air and landing horribly on this thing my knees hit my face so hard they almost were out the back of my head I get whiplash and my back does something disagreeable.

...so I wake up today with a neck like a piece of wood and my skeletal system just feels all wrong

what a knob!

[ChristySpirals]

Wow lmao. You take the cake on impulsive today. Bravo

...yay, I get a prize!

will have to eat the cake later cos nearly bit my tongue in half and today I'm actually walking around like a monkey

maybe it's part of reverse evolution for the extra weird...hehe

[ChristySpirals]

Lol maybe. Party pooper heh