[Berries]

I've heard that everyone deserves to be happy so many times over the years.
And each time I hear it (unless I'm manic), I think--I'm on disability (lifelong) and therefore I have to suffer.

If I am not suffering I don't deserve those benefits.

Plus, I think if I am not suffering and they find that out, they will take away those benefits and then I will really, really suffer--no income or insurance for meds, for t or pdoc, for rent, for hospital...

Does anyone relate?

[cocos421]

I can relate. The past month I have felt absolutely terrific. No depression at all. No ups or downs. I feel very happy. My life couldn't be better.
I am on disability and I am afraid of it being taken away. I wonder what's going to happen the next time I see my pdoc and I tell her I feel great again? If I lose disability, I lose everything. My husband isn't working right now, so the disability is helping us both out, plus we are getting some benifits like food stamps.
I do not think I could go back to work, my symptoms would start right back up.
Anyway, yes I hear what you are saying. I don't think we should have to suffer, though.