[lilred3382]

Im not sure if this is even the proper place to post this..but do you all ever wake up with anxiety panic attacks with super irritabilitiness?

Also, is it normal to continually question my dx's? Im having a hard time accepting it.

[paulswife1]

I WAKE UP MOST MORNINGS WITH MY HEART RACING AND IN A FULL BLOWN PANIC ATTACK. AND YES IT IS OK TO QUESTION YOUR DR. IT'S YOUR JOB TO, JUST BECAUSE THEY HAVE A DEGREE DOSEN'T MAKE THEM RIGHT ALL THE TIME. YOU KNOW YOUR MIND AND BODY BETTER THAN ANYONE. "ANXIETY IS WHEN YOU WAKE UP SCREAMING AND REALIZE YOU HAVEN'T GONE TO SLEEP YET". THAT'S ME EVERY MORNING. I AM LUCKY TO HAVE A HUSBAND WHO UNDERSTANDS. I HOPE YOU HAVE SOMEONE THERE IN THE MORNING TOO.

[perpetuallysad]

I have panic attacks sometimes that wake me from sleeping. Covered in sweat, heart pounding, chest constricted... the whole nine yards. I don't know if it is considered normal, but I know it does happen to me.

Also, I wondered about my diagnosis quite a bit when I was first given it. In fact, I was like "no way, I have none of those symptoms"... but with time and some personal honesty, I do see that I DO have many/most of the symptoms and I definitely feel better having some sort of direction to look when I am trying to find answers. Ie, when I am totally freaked out about something I do or say or feel, I will come and ask here in the bipolar forum, or will read bp literature and it helps to know that what I do is explainable in some way.

Good luck and ask any questions you have. People here are fantastic with providing help and support.

[lilred3382]

No Sadly I have no one as I dont deserve anyone. I have my dog though, he sleeps with me and he snuggles pretty close to me as he knows whats going on.
The thing is I question the drs bc I odnt know what I feel all the time so it makes it hard for me to say this is what I feel.

I go through spans of time where I frequently wake up to a panic attack (not always, it's just that they seem to go in clusters). Super irritable.... hmmm. Am not remembering so much waking up that way, but there definitely are times that it doesn't take long to get there(!)

On the diagnosis, you had said elsewhere that you were recently diagnosed. How recently? There are times I think, "no, this can't be so...maybe there's nothing wrong with me". (HA!) Those moments don't come very often, but they do make brief apprearances, often when I'm wanting to ditch meds. They are very common in BP, probably because of the cyclical nature of it. Sometimes it's more obvious than others, yeah? Around the time I was diagnosed, whenever things from the past would come to mind, I'd write them down. When I'm doubting/wanting to go off meds, and conveniently "forgetting" the evidence, I can look at that and get a thorough reality check. Not to say that I don't sometimes try to "minimize" what I see, but there's something about seeing it there in black and white, written in my own hand (ie. it's not just what someone else has said), and the years and years and years of evidence that helps bring me back to reality.

Don't know if that helps, but you're sure not alone.

[blueoctober]

I have woken up in the middle of the night with an anxiety attack and it results in me instantly going to the washroom to puke (sorry that's gross!). For me now it's triggered by something stressful i.e. it happened every night after I saw my parents. Prior to my diagnosis it was happening all the time for about the last 3 months before my hospitalization. I was constantly nauseous and would puke before going to work. I assumed I just had the flu, but now I realize it was anxiety.

As far as questioning your diagnosis when were you diagnosed? Have you educated yourself on the illness i.e. read books etc.? It's natural and healthy to question it because this is your health and it wouldn't matter what I was diagnosed with I would research the s**** out of it to make sure the diagnosis fit.