[BNLsMOM]

So if the ice cream truck was driving behind me, well, well behind me,and my windows were closed and I had the radio on, but I could still hear that annoying song just faintly under and inside of the radio program I was listening to, and sort of in my head, was that a hallucination?

The truck was there for sure; it is the music I was questioning.

[Amazonmom]

If I can hear the annoying rap blaring out of the car behind me despite my windows being up and the radio on, I bet you are actually hearing the ice cream truck.

It's not hallucinating to see an ice cream truck and remember the song they play...but if it happens with many different cars or in different situations I would be more worried. Do you usually have auditory hallucinations when psychosis starts bothering you?

[colbel]

Strange... so strange to be seeing this question asked. As I sat outside on my deck smoking a cigarette I could hear the crickets SCREAMING! I wonder if that's what you mean? For me, it's not an hallucination because they REALLY are out there BUT they were definitely louder to ME than to anybody else, that I am sure of! When I am manic, I have super intense hearing. There is a name for it but I can't tell you now what it's called.

My dryer is on and it is SOOO loud. My washer is on and I can hear it through 2 walls. I hear my ceiling fan. I can hear (and I know how weird this sounds!) the lightbulb in the light above my head. It's like super-sonic hearing and it drives me nuts!

...and this we call the fine line between genius and insanity!

[BNLsMOM]

I have had very few auditory hallucinations. Lately, though, I feel like I can hear TV shows through the walls when I am in my bedroom and the house is quiet. We live in a freestanding house far away enough where neighbors would really have to have the TV on loud for me to hear it. Also, I listen to a noise machine and run a fan in my room. (Not to mention my husband's snoring) Underneath it all, I can hear the faint mumbling of TV.

Also, last week, I had the TV on mute and an ad came on and I swear I could hear the audio.

Sometimes, I hear things in my own head that are in voices other than my own. Usually it will be a nonsense phrase or just one word.

I have been thinking that things are other than what they are. In other words, I saw a trash bag by the side of the road today, but thought it was a person bending over and gardening. I could see the person's movements that made it look like gardening. Then I looked again and saw that it was a trash bag. Also, I have been mistaking things in my house and thinking that they are animals, like seeing a bag and thinking it is a cat.

I also think some of my obsessive tendencies are coming back again and my sleeping is all messed up.

With all of this going on, I feel like my mood is stable (although a bit on the low side) and I am functioning a bit. (with room for improvement) I still can't seem to get my house in order, get out of bed in the morning and remember to take a shower until I am disgusting, but once I do get going I am not ruminating on bad things all the time.

[Amandas256]

It sounds like something is up to me. maybe you need to go see your p-doc. Keep us posted on what's going on with you!

[BNLsMOM]

Originally Posted by Amandas256

It sounds like something is up to me. maybe you need to go see your p-doc. Keep us posted on what's going on with you!

Crap. I was afraid of that.

[Amazonmom]

I vote for running this by the T or Pdoc too. I don't want anything bad happening to any of my PC friends.

Originally Posted by BNLsMOM

I have been thinking that things are other than what they are. In other words, I saw a trash bag by the side of the road today, but thought it was a person bending over and gardening. I could see the person's movements that made it look like gardening. Then I looked again and saw that it was a trash bag. Also, I have been mistaking things in my house and thinking that they are animals, like seeing a bag and thinking it is a cat.

If it's any consolation-- the stuff like in your paragraph above happens to me all the time. Seriously, like every day. By way of example, just a day or two ago, I thought there was a baby deer lying down in a small planting on an office grounds. It was a rock. And rather rectangular at that. Might have even been gray. Usually I just chalk them up to a creative mind... to see things within things, things fully formed from nuance... Doesn't mean some of them haven't freaked me out. Sometimes it's a fine line.

I've not really thought of them as hallucinations, per se. It's something I also do consciously. Hard to describe, but like... trancing and seeing myriad images on/in something. When it's not conscious, I figure it's just my brain on autopilot(!)

I agree with the others that it's a good idea to check on it. Doesn't mean it IS anything, but it's better to check than to worry.

[BNLsMOM]

Yeah, there is something going on. I just got it in my mind that I wanted to see the meteor showers so I went in my back yard. I got really scared like something was going to jump me from the back and kill me. It was too light to see anything anyway, so I got in my car and drove to my son's school where it is darker. (His school is in a farmhouse built in 1687) There was a light on in an upstairs window and I thought someone was in there watching me and I was afraid I would get in trouble so I left. I then proceeded to drive all over the place looking for dark fields to see the meteors. I found a dark spot to pull over, but then I got scared again because I thought that people who drove by would hurt me.

I then decided to drive home. On the way I sort of wanted to get stopped by the police, but not really, so I pushed the speed limit a little.

I had loud music going the whole time. I kept thinking that other cars were following me and that they were going to crash into me or follow me home or something.

I kept thinking about when I was single and how I should have done tons of fun and risky things and had all kinds of one night stands (never had one) because I am now stuck in my relationship where we don't have any intimacy at all. I was thinking about how I could have gone down a different road and if I would still be driving the roads like crazy looking for a dark spot to see meteors.

The bummer of it all is that I didn't get to see any meteors.

I am safe at home now.

[BNLsMOM]

Slept about an hour last night and then spent the morning in bed sleeping on and off.

I feel all sorts of energy boiling around under the surface, but no motivation to do anything about it.

[BNLsMOM]

I emailed T earlier and he called me back and asked me if I will be OK today. I told him that I think so. He said to call him if I need to. He is going to forward my email to my p-doc so that she can keep an eye on my symptoms. Hopefully she won't want to have me go to the hospital. I have to get a good night's sleep tonight. That is what my T is most worried about right now. He thinks my trouble sleeping lately is starting to mess with my chemistry.