[Moreta]

Seems to be all I can accomplish as of late. I found out yesterday that my surgery got postponed......again. I'm not quite sure when I will be having it now. Hopefully, they will call me back today. Apparently, some lab test came back weird or something, and my surgeon wants another surgeon there. It was already postponed the first time, b/c of the scheduling of another surgeon. So now I'll get 3 surgeons poking around inside me.

I really enjoy how back in April, when they first found the mass, they said it would be nothing, and here it is in AUGUST, that i'm having a massive surgery to get the mass removed. I'm glad that I had absolutely nothing to do for the past 4 months, while the doctors have been trying to figure themselves out. It's especially great for my mental status, especially as of late. *sarcasm*

In the past week, I've been having pretty much daily meltdowns, of some sort. Monday night I got so overwhelmed, I did some SI. so, so, so, so, stupid. since then I haven't done it again, but it's so hard to not do it, once you've done it. I saw my T on Wednesday, and told him about it, and how ashamed i was that i had let it happen. Since then, I've been trying to hold myself more accountable and it's been 4 days without any SI.

I've also not been able to sleep lately, because i've been in a lot of pain. It seems like 4 hours is the max, that i can get at one time because I wake up in pain. Tonight it was a headache that woke me up. Unfortunately, I haven't been able to take my mobic (anti-inflammatory) since Sunday, b/c you have to be off of it for a week b4 surgery and since I don't know when they are going to reschedule it, i still can't take any. I've been taking tylenol, but that's kind of like taking sugar pills, and it only dulls the pain.

[blueoctober]

QueenAccountant; I'm sorry you are going through this.

[Trippin2.0]

Sending hugs ur way QA

[kadesgirl09]

how are you? did they ever get you scheduled? havent been on in a few days but I wanted you to know I was thinking about your struggle. (((QA)))

[vjdragonfly]

I hope the doctors get their **** together and quit dragging you along for the ride. Sorry you are going through this. Hope all is better soon.

[sugahorse1]

Sorry, been so busy and haven't had time to catch up on posts. What's news on your surgery? There's nothing worse than having to wait... I'm sorry for you.
I've had a few meltdowns too this last week - it's terrible to feel so overwhelmed.
Thinking of you, hugs xxx

[lonegael]

(((((((((((Queen accountant)))))))))))))) In a similar situation. Hang in there! Huggggs

[owllover99]

My heart goes out to you. As if we didn't have enough to deal with. Now this. I hope they get off their a$$e$ and get this surgery done. Please keep us informed. Sorry, I gotta get back to work. Hugs, Owl.

[Moreta]

thanks everyone.

stupid doctors....grumble...grumble...grumble.

I still haven't heard anything....hopefully they'll call me back today. I called them yesterday and left a message but never heard back.

How have you been sleeping, QA? Hope they get it all sorted very soon for you. I can only hope that they are trying to figure out how to do it in the least invasive yet effective way. (I had a neighbor where the docs were at odds with this, but it all came out very well in the end.)

[Amandas256]

Hang in there QA! Everything will work out. I'll be thinking about you. Sending lots of love and hugs your way!

[thinker22]

Like the others have said. I hope you hear from the doc's office soon and you can get this hovering cloud of anxiety over with.

Keep us posted.

[Moreta]

meh.......

I have an appointment to see the surgeon on Friday. Have to start a couple medications before the surgery. Going to find out when the surgery is then.

Good news though, the insurance company figured themselves out, so now I have insurance again.

[LostSavant]

Just to let you know dear sister....My thoughts are with you always... A

So QA, did they get the surgery sorted at all for you today?

[Moreta]

grumblegrumblegrumble.

No. I have to go get another scan doing (MIBG), so they can see if the mass is an active tumor, which is was the doctor thinks it it. Then he's going to take my case, and present it at a conference, to see what other doctors would do, b/c what it is, paraganglioma, is very rare. Most of the time it runs in families. *Thank you genetics, once again*

so yeah, got to wait a couple of weeks now, to find out if i'm having surgery.

In other news, I lost my job yesterday too. *sigh* But it's not like I wanted to go back anyways.

QA. Rough day.