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Sep 20, 2010, 10:09 AM
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I have been diagnosed BP for over 10 years now and I am medicated....
I still have the swings but they have changed so much over the years. I used to love my mania because I had so much energy and a love for all things and then as I was getting older my mania's became more of angry outbursts and anxiety. The following depression was always the same or worse. Well, last week I started feeling a little bit of the old good manic come back and it is getting more and more intense and i hate to say this but I absolutly freakin love it. I am wide eyed and bushy tailed and I have not felt this good in years. I don't want to tell my Pdoc because I really want to ride it out. Of course I am still rational enough to know what it is going to be like when I crash and I am dreading it. i guess I just needed to come on here and let someone, anyone know. I did tell my hubby but he didn't really say much. He doesn't completly understand. Grrrrr. i know what I should do, but it is so hard. I had to take an extra klonopin yesterday because my thoughts were racing a mile a minute and I had heart palpitations so I know I am bad. Why do we love mania so much. I guess because it feels so good! I feel like singing again! I love to sing but when I am depressed or "normal" i just don't feel like it. Sorry for the rambling. I just had to get it out. I hope everyone has a great day! Littlepieceofheaven Oh and I got a new tattoo on Sat! I think that is number 36! LOL |
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Sep 20, 2010, 10:11 AM
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ooh show us the new ink!
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Sep 20, 2010, 10:21 AM
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Sep 20, 2010, 10:22 AM
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littlepieceofheaven; I think it's natural to welcome a "good" hypomanic episode. You have done the right thing by letting your husband know.....even if he didn't seem to acknowledge it. Good luck with your tattoo!
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Favorite book on bipolar "Living with Someone who is Living with Bipolar Disorder" by Chelsea Lowe, 2010 Check out my blog The Bipolar Roller Coaster: http://blueoctober.psychcentral.net/ New Post March 23 "New Therapist" |
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#5
Sep 20, 2010, 10:24 AM
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Here is the latest tattoo. it is a quote that says, "If you are not ready to die, then how can you live."
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Sep 20, 2010, 10:31 AM
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Favorite book on bipolar "Living with Someone who is Living with Bipolar Disorder" by Chelsea Lowe, 2010 Check out my blog The Bipolar Roller Coaster: http://blueoctober.psychcentral.net/ New Post March 23 "New Therapist" |
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Sep 20, 2010, 10:37 AM
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I just made a folder with some of my tattoo on my profile if anyone wants to check them out! Thanks blueoctober. I thought the quote was pretty bad as*
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#8
Sep 20, 2010, 10:42 AM
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i love it!
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Sep 20, 2010, 11:05 AM
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Favorite book on bipolar "Living with Someone who is Living with Bipolar Disorder" by Chelsea Lowe, 2010 Check out my blog The Bipolar Roller Coaster: http://blueoctober.psychcentral.net/ New Post March 23 "New Therapist" |
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Sep 20, 2010, 06:43 PM
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I love being manic too! (except for the crazy one where you feel invincible and think you know everything...) I think it's completely normal to like when you feel good and happy! I'm pretty sure I'm kinda hypo-manic these days which is great... the only thing I worry about is if/when I crash. Only time will tell how that'll go, I suppose!
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Sep 20, 2010, 06:47 PM
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I almost love being manic cuz then at least I can get things done.
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Sep 22, 2010, 07:04 AM
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Sep 23, 2010, 07:01 AM
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love the tat!!!
i love the mania when its good, when it gets dirty and messy with nasty stuff then not so much... hard to convince yourself that somethings wrong when you are having fun...
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Sep 23, 2010, 11:04 AM
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"Better not look down, if you want to keep on flying Put the hammer down, keep it full speed ahead Better not look back, or you might just wind up crying You can keep it moving, if you don't look down" - B.B. King Come join the BP Social Society on Psych Central Everyone is Welcome! |
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