What a wreck...

UGH! I am a mess... I have a website that I had abandoned when I went back to work a year ago. I decided this week to work on it. HA! I am horrible when I work for or by my self. I have NO sense of time management and now I have worked myself up into a VERY manic state and I have destroyed half the site. GRRRR. I did realize two years ago when I developed most of my designs I was also extremely manic because I have hundreds of designs that I made in a very short amount of time (SCARY). It is so strange to go back a year later and work on something and see how manic you were. I don't want to be there again, but I know I can't do it depressed and I need the money so I am going to have to get my site fixed and selling my shirts. Tomorrow I am going to *try* to work on a plan to do a section at a time instead of having 10 windows open and working on 20 things at once.

LaraLynn; I can completely relate. You do end up being more productive if you try to focus on one thing at a time, so I hope it goes better tomorrow. Perhaps you could write out what your goals are for the day and that may help you stay more focused.

I can relate to that. I am a writer and there are times when i can't write but my manic phases I can power out pages of stuff. I just wish it didn't sound like it was written by more then one person. I had my brother ask me, "Who helped write this?" It was all me but my moods and thoughts can run faster then I can type so it can be jumbled. I learned a long time ago though, that just getting down is huge. I can go back and revise later.

That is my plan for tomorrow. I am going to my gp in the morning for a possible uti and then when I get home I am definitely going to plan some things out in a spreadsheet and try to stick to it. I need to NOT get too manic and get this done.

That is so how I felt looking at all the designs there were literally hundreds and so many that did not fit together, but I can use pieces from them....ugh. At least I am a graphics designer and I can pull everything apart on the computer - it would be hell if I was still painting.

Oh sooooooo relate!!!

Being diagnosed really brought this to light. Like.... on some level I knew it, and yet didn't -- though the evidence was/is astounding, lol! At the time, it just seemed "normal" -- doesn't everyone do this? (hehe, we know the answer to that one! ) Still shocks to behold the volume, even now...

It is good to have re-configurable parts, isn't it?!
(My stuff's that way too...TG!)

You've got a great plan there in trying to work it in sections.

well here is how my day has actualy gone...went to the Dr. and came home to my son calling to want to come home from school with yet another fake illness (this is the 5th time since I have by home for the past 6 weeks). I should not have been the one to pick him up from school, but alas I was. I went up to the school office and went straight into the nurses office and closed the door...never a good sign. LOL. Well, I am manic right now so...here is what happened next. My son has tourettes, ADD and is a hypochondriac. I have been called 5 times in 6 weeks to pick him up for various reasons today it is because he threw up. Did YOU see him throw up? Did anyone SEE him throw up? "well no." I lost my job. My son thinks it is better to be home with mommy. He is a momma's boy. Have YOU not figured that out yet? Last year I worked the entire year he missed NO school. Are you understanding YET? He is a straight A student. He is student of the month, BUT this is not going to last if YOU continue to CALL me every 5 minutes on the whim of this NON sick child. I will NOT be picking him up again unless you actually see him throw up or he has a fever of 101. AND today he will be sitting on his be with NO books or electronic devices until he goes to bed. Sound fun?
The last time you allowed him to come home he cried an hour later about how mean I was because he felt better and I wasn't letting him go play. This is not happening again. OMG. I am done. AND the worst of this is that my daughter who she had three precious years was the EXACT same way! What the HELL. Sorry...had to vent.