[GothGeisha]

When I was little my cousin was diagnosed as ADHD. My mom saw similarities between us and was convinced I was ADHD too so she had my pediatrician put me on Adderall. I was also treated for insomnia, depression, and suicidal tendencies. I do not think I have ADHD and I always thought I would feel better once I moved out of my mom's house so I moved out the day of my 18th birthday. Needless to say it didn't fix me. I got engaged and tortured my fiancée for fours years. I am always so up and down he begged me to get help but I lashed out at him and one day I just cheated on him and left him, He didn't deserve that. I moved in with the man I left him for and we were married in eight months. I didn't tell my family until a month later. My husband and I have had even worse ups and downs and we argue a lot because he is not as patient with me. I hurt myself pretty badly after one of our arguments and had to go to the emergency room. He didn't tell the doctors what I had done but he told me if I did it again he'd leave me. I got pregnant the next month and for a while I felt good but then I started to get stressed and I quit my job and moved out during my sixth month of pregnancy and moved in with my father. I know I need help and it has come to be apparent to me that I am likely Bipolar and I do want help for my son's sake but in all honesty, I am afraid to talk to a doctor. I don't even know what I would say to one.

[LaraLynn]

Hi! From what you are saying it does sound like bipolar with the ups and downs. There is also something that I noticed when you said you hurt yourself after one of your arguments that sounds like Borderline Personality Disorder - which also has a lot of ups and downs. You can look that up as well. Maybe you have a duel diagnosis - many people do.

The easiest thing to do is write down what you want to discuss and bring that in with you. However, they are usually pretty good about leading on the intact visit. You do have a child now so getting well and feeling better and being someone that can care for their child on their own is important. You can do this .

[PT52]

LaraLynn makes some excellent points. It seems like you're at a point where you are ready to reach out; it's understandable that you would be afraid to talk to a doctor. Maybe call a hotline first? Whatever method you find to walk thru your fear and get treatment, do it - for your son and for yourself. Too many people put it off for too long and lose precious time with the people they love the most. You are strong - you can do this.

[Skully]

Hello and welcome!!!
It is possible that you may be bipolar...the only one to know for sure is a pdoc so make an appointment as soon as you can; do the best you can with handling the stress with going to the doc. I wish I could be of more help, but I cannot diagnose you. It could also be Borderline Personality Disorder....there are so many things that could fit that it has to be narrowed down by a professinal.

Also, it is possible to be both bipolar AND ADHD at the same time....I am and the two often overlap each other.

[LaraLynn]

Originally Posted by Skully

Hello and welcome!!!
It is possible that you may be bipolar...the only one to know for sure is a pdoc so make an appointment as soon as you can; do the best you can with handling the stress with going to the doc. I wish I could be of more help, but I cannot diagnose you. It could also be Borderline Personality Disorder....there are so many things that could fit that it has to be narrowed down by a professinal.

Also, it is possible to be both bipolar AND ADHD at the same time....I am and the two often overlap each other.

THANKS for mentioning the ADHD Skully! I forgot about that part... I am BP I, BPD and ADD so very possible for people to be more than one thing and we ALL present differently.