[BNLsMOM]

I had a vivid dream last night.

In my dream I had decided to give my original p-doc another chance because the one I hae now is not covered under my insurance. When it was time for me to go into his office, he directed me into Room A. When I entered it was like a psych triage. There were beds and the walls were made of white gauze. It was sort of like being inside a giant bandage. The p-doc asked me to spend some time in the room since I had never gone in when I went to his practice before. That way I could see what his practice could offer me. There was another person resting on a bed in the back of the room as well. Once I was settled in, I was able to really look around. I could see through the gauze to the outside. I realized that there were windows all over the room and the gauze was just on the windows. Out the back window, there was a giant lot which was filled with what looked like metal track. Suddenly I realized that this p-doc had a private roller coaster as part of his practice.

The weather began to turn bad and the p-doc was taking care of other patients in his office which I had been in before. A nurse took me and the other person out of Room A and asked us to wait on some bleachers. There were dozens of other people on the bleachers. I sat down next to someone who seemed familiar and I realized it was my childhood friend. She was in rough shape, crying, and her hair was everywhere. I just sat down next to her and hugged her and told her that I was there. I always have been.

Then I woke up.

[(JD)]

Hi... did you ever figure anything out on this? How is your therapy going today, with the other pdoc?

It looks like you felt there might be more that you missed taking advantage of with your former pdoc... yet maybe feel not as needy (because of the other people?)

Only you can be sure of the real reason for the dream... it's your brain trying to work on or file memories and thoughts.

[BNLsMOM]

I actually forgot about this dream.. It is ironic that you bring it up, because the other night, I had a dream that this childhood friend of mine passed away.

[Moose72]

A rollercoaster in a pdoc's office when you're bipolar. As if he's the one making your moods go crazily up and down?

[BNLsMOM]

Originally Posted by Moose72

A rollercoaster in a pdoc's office when you're bipolar. As if he's the one making your moods go crazily up and down?

He did prescribe me some meds that I had bad reactions to and had to go to the hospital. I think the symbolism of the roller coaster is pretty much the disease, the gauze is the opaque veil that we who have the disease are surrounded in, as if we are there, but behind a curtain that no one can ever really see all the way through. The weather changing, I think symbolizes my moods shifting. I am still a bit stumped about the dozens of people on the bleachers and why my childhood friend showed up.

She seems to show up in a lot of my dreams lately. I should give her a call and see if she is OK.