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Dec 26, 2010, 04:42 PM
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I came up to the mountains to teach skiing. I've always loved skiing. I've loved teaching it. I taught for 8 years before my diagnosis. I haven't taught for the last 2 years because I didn't feel that I could mentally handle it.
This year I decided to come back, this was family to me, not just a job. Now it's just a job. I hurt my legs wearing my boots. I can barely walk. I came home after the first day on the mountain and cried for hours. All I wanted to do was admit failure pack up and drive home. I've been fighting a cold or something for weeks and now I finally have it. My throat is killing me, my ears are stopped up and my eyes hurt. I stayed home today (and yesterday) and slept most of both days and all night both nights. I'm miserable physically and mentally. I can't help but think that at least part of the problem is mental. I used to come up here and teach for 15-20 days straight. I did orientation one day, shadowed classes the next day, and taught for 3 hours the following day. I've been at our house up here for the last 2 days sleeping and feeling miserable. I feel like I should give it at least one more chance before I give up. Part of me wants to just say screw it and go home but part of me really feels like I should do this to prove to myself that I am "better." I'm miserable. I don't know what to do. I went ahead and scheduled myself a massage for today hoping that will make my legs better enough that I can put my boots on tomorrow. Thanks for listening.
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Dec 26, 2010, 05:01 PM
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You just haven't done it in quite a while! That's all.
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Dec 26, 2010, 05:06 PM
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Like Moose has said.
I know from the nfl players that miss training camp get injured at a much higher frequency.
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Dec 26, 2010, 05:06 PM
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I know... I just feel like I'm letting everyone down. And there's a very good possibility I'll get fired for not going to work today. I just made the decision that my health was more important than any job. I don't know that that's the best decision in the world but the goal for my therapy for the last 6 months was to learn to take care of myself. That's what I'm trying to do but I feel very guilty about it.
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Dec 26, 2010, 06:34 PM
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kitty,
only you know if the job is too tough for you. i hope you feel better soon, and I think in the long run you'll be happier if you give it a try, though. You'll get back in shape quickly, and your cold won't last forever...good luck. |
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Dec 26, 2010, 07:53 PM
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Thank you all for your kind words
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Dec 26, 2010, 10:02 PM
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(((kitty)))
Taking care of yourself is the priority.
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It is said an Eastern monarch once charged his wise men to invent him a sentence, to be ever in view, and which should be true and appropriate in all times and situations. They presented him the words: "And this, too, shall pass away." How much it expresses! How chastening in the hour of pride! How consoling in the depths of affliction! ---"Address before the Wisconsin State Agricultural Society". Abraham Lincoln Online. Milwaukee, Wisconsin. September 30, 1859. |
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