[Miss Laura]

Hypo-Mania has started coming down to a more okish level.

I was at GP's today and she has said if I was working she would be telling me to take time off. Luckily I am off work lol. I am to start following a better routine which is completely lacking as I work shift work and struggle for sleep most of the time. I am to lay off alcohol. I am to stop talking to the 7 guys from England and DO NOT UNDER NO CIRUMSTANCES MAKE ARRANGEMENTS TO HEAD TO ENGLAND TO MEET THESE GUYS. I am also seeing a CPN on Friday so she is happy with that. She has said she will speak to Psych and see if we can introduce a mild sedative for my complete non exsitent sleep. I have to do more exercise, eat more and take better care of myself.

What I didn't tell her was that I have had random weird dreams and 1 about my ex counsellor trying to stop me doing something stupid. Unsure where that one came from. Also I have stopped taking my 10pm med as its just not doing anything to me. I have started taking it again after my friend got on to me and told me I had to and to not make decisions like this without taking to my GP and Psych.

I am really anxious about seeing CPN on Friday its a he so unsure how that will be as I find it hard sometimes talking to guys. Especially face:face. My friend said if this happens then write down what I need to say and hand it to him and that way I am not verbalising everything.

I am not tired AGAIN this is the 14th night in a row I am WIDE AWAKE its just before Midnight. I was up until 5am this morning. I just get hyper at night for some strange weird random reason.

I am going to the Citizen's Advice Bureau tomorrow to see about work etc I am a bit worried about that as I am gonna have to tell strangers I am ill.

Kinda feel "happy/buzzed speeded up" you all know the drill

Is this all normal feelings to have or am I maybe too manic for my own good or am I just a weirdo hahaha!!!!!!!

[sugahorse1]

Glad to hear the Hypomania is slowly coming under control. Your GP sounds like he's really helpful and realistic.
I wish I could find time for more exercise (Well, and exercise at all!).

Glad to hear you're happy!! Whoop whoop. I'm sure the CPN will be able to help you work out if the hypomania is acceptable, or if this is just the happy you!

[Miss Laura]

Thanks Suga,

I am starting to realise I am not gonna get better myself. I have as of tonight cut off all ties with 6 of the 7 guys I was speaking to. I am starting my bedtime routine after I write this post. I keep sleeping through out the day I crashed out for 4 hours this afternoon I just can't stay awake.

My GP is really good she knows me pretty well from just listening to her. Worried still about CPN only less than 2 days eeek!!

I have had a stress free day as much as its been boring. Think I am too tired to do much

[sugahorse1]

Hope you had some restful sleep!

Don't worry about the app on Friday - only open as much as you can obviously, the more, the better. But if you don't feel comfortable, don't feel guilty for not being able to talk.

[PT52]

Originally Posted by Miss Laura

Thanks Suga,

I am starting to realise I am not gonna get better myself. I have as of tonight cut off all ties with 6 of the 7 guys I was speaking to. I am starting my bedtime routine after I write this post. I keep sleeping through out the day I crashed out for 4 hours this afternoon I just can't stay awake.

My GP is really good she knows me pretty well from just listening to her. Worried still about CPN only less than 2 days eeek!!

I have had a stress free day as much as its been boring. Think I am too tired to do much

You're GP was definitely right about the guys - sometimes our judgment in that directiona can be a little off. My sis who's BP-I took a vacation for a week on the opposite side of the country, met some guy who wasn't even really interested in her and when she got home, she was ready to pack up and move across the country. Had to be talked out of it.

Sure hope that you find your balance