[Miss Laura]

Had a GP app today........

I broke down in front of my GP, I just can't cope/handle it anymore.

I am still off work unsure what will happen if I still have a job or not. My family have no money as my family are unemployed due to the recession. I have no money. I have no friends. My work have alienated my colleages from me as I have had "special leave" which is my work's fault which means they have to cover my shifts. I am hiding all my feelings as people ask questions and people don't understand. My family don't understand Bipolar at all and are not willing to read up on it as it's too much for them to handle at the mo.

I am stressed out about work and home life. I have no friends from work. I have 4 friends but every time I am with them which is rare btw it feels like its not real and when it's time to go home or re-visit reality I am upset and scared. I actually don't even want to go back to work.... I am dreading the call from work and dreading going back to work if taht's the way it's gonna go.

My GP I think was worried as she asked me if I was wanting or have I tried hurting myself which I haven't. I am seeing my CPN on Thursday and I have just got Seroquel 25mg too from Psych.

What am I doing here I just don't know

I want to just I don't know just just

[Trippin2.0]

Oh Laura!!! My heart is crying out for you right n0w. Things will get better,trust me. You're in my thoughts and prayers hun!

[missbelle]

It WILL get better....I wrote this on someone else's post...It was a quote that saved me once!!!.........."Don't give up before the miracle happens!!"

Thinking of you!!

[Yoda]

yes it does get better. three years ago I started crying in my allergist's office. It's an awful feeling.

I hope you feel better soon.

[laur88]

Hugs, Laura!! It will get better. When things are at their lowest you have to think that the only way to go is up.

((((((((((Laura))))))))))
Sending you many hugs. Although sometimes it may not feel like it, things will get better. I hope you are starting to feel better soon!

[kitty004567]

I hope you start feeling better soon!

[SunReach]

Just adding more hugs....

Seroquel is good for anxiety so hopefully that will help you feel a little bit more at peace until things get properly sorted...
Much love

[Kymaro]

hugs from all of us, we all been there at one point or another. Best wishes and lots of happy thoughts your way

[Miss Laura]

Hey guys,

Thank you so much for all your support....

I am still struggling but I am ok!! My friend took me to the beach today.... Yes it was 2 degrees where I was VERY cold. We went to our local castle and walked along the beach. We looked at shells and I took photo's of the water and the castle. We went for lunch and we chatted.

My work still have not called me despite my Area Manager saying she would call me today. What do I do? I called her and left a message and then called her office and left a message there too. Still nothing. I have been anxious all day and we be anxious tomorrow too

I have my CPN tomorrow and I am gonna have a chat with him, I have joined a union that deals with the work I do. I have made a start to cleaning my room out and I have checked groups in my area ALL TODAY!!!

Its 8:22pm and I am exhausted.

I am worried as obviously I have researched and found out Seroquel is for treating Shicizophenia.... am I Schizophenic? I know I get paranoid but I really don't know.

[Yoda]

I was prescribed Seroquel to help me sleep.

I was prescribed seroquel for sleep and bipolar depression.

[Miss Laura]

Ye they have prescribed it for sleep but to mainly help with anxiousness and agitation

[kitty004567]

I take seroquil as my main mood stabilizer... course there was some talk of schizophrenia but nothing ever came of it perhaps because I'm on a drug that treats both Remember plenty of drugs are prescribed off label. Just because a drug is mainly used to treat one thing doesn't mean that's why it was prescribed to you.

[Lostime]

It will get better Laura we are survivors, it may sound strange but I hope you understand what I do try to say.

We need to educate the people in our lives to help and assist us, it is not something we can completely handle by our-selfs, there are some good booklets "leaflets" on the internet you can print and give to them to read.

[Miss Laura]

Hey guys,

I know... I am just unsure when things will start looking up. Still nothing from work I should of heard something yesterday... this is killing me here. I never had my CPN today as he had to cancels. So we have a session on Tuesday.

I have printed loads of info, bought loads of books for my family.... they just won't look at them. My GP says maybe if someone else was to give them the info so gonna ask CPN.

I spoke to CPN on phone and he asked how I was and we spoke about my meds. I got 12 hours sleep last night on the Serquol so fingers crossed.