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Feb 11, 2011, 08:51 PM
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ARGH! I cant seem to get my mind to just SHUT UP and let tings drop. But it's going replaying the same scene over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over at a million miles per hour, and IT WONT STOP!
my mind is buzing and buzzing and buzzing. not even music can calm me. maybe i should blast it. but i have neighbors. they may *****. so i shouldn't... fark me. i am annoying. i thought the last few days of 4hrs of sleep was weird. this is spinning me round in circles of maddness. maybe i am going farking insane or something. and here i thought i was safe... i was Euthymic for the last three days, and it was great! Nothing was bugging me. Not even my own mind! it just won't ever stop. will it? this will never stop. maybe i should just do it, and get it over with it. i am obviously tormenting my self, and it wants me to it.
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Feb 11, 2011, 09:06 PM
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Maybe it's time to see your psychiatrist for a med adjustment.
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Feb 11, 2011, 09:16 PM
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i went off them 2 weeks ago to collect data on my self. I needed to be sure i was bipolar before considering continuing meds. they were making me worse oh they were. They gave me my first mxied episode and it scared the heck out of me. i have been journeling and monitoring my moods for the last 4 months.
but i need to more data. i need it! just a few more weeks of crazy, and i'l know my truth. i just need to endure this... i was on lithium, and klonipin, and just starting lamitical. and nothing was working. in fact making me cycle faster, and more severe. it was too intense for me. i couldn't handle it. so i farking quit. i am a huge quitter, nd a fake. i should just disappear. no one would miss me....
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Feb 11, 2011, 09:19 PM
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I know that feeling of the brain never shutting up - not fun. Do you have headphones for the music? Hope you figure this out soon.
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Feb 11, 2011, 09:44 PM
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actually, farking weird. i listen to the doors for a little while, do some singing, and i feel better. yaaay.
go go music therapy! lol. sorry for all the trouble, m8s.
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Feb 12, 2011, 12:40 AM
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 cesario! I'm so glad you are feeling better now! Music therapy for sure! 
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Feb 12, 2011, 01:27 AM
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Sounds to me like a pretty hypermanic episode and a sit down with your pdoc is needed.
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 Many times I've been alone and many times I've cried anyway you'll never know the many ways I've tried DX: Ultra ultra rapid cycling bipolar 1 depression with frequent mixed episodes Meds: Lamictal 400mg Geodon 160mg Concerta 18mg Klonopin 1mg prior meds: Trileptal, Risperdal, Celexa, Lexapro, Zyprexa, Invega, Abilify, Lithium, Effexor, Ativan |
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Feb 12, 2011, 10:17 AM
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For me, Ritalin helped a lot. I have lived with a buzzing mind for more than 50 years. Now I know how bad it was.
-Hope you get relief soon |
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