Have you ever had?

Ever had feelings for a friend and pushed them away due to being bipolar? What happened?

Not that I remember, sorry. Take care.

I have pushed away friends based on my behavior or fear of being rejected by them so I pushed them away first. This was probably based on my bipolar. The "what happened" was that I lost good friends. In some cases I learned that they were hurt that I pushed them away and that they never would have pushed me away. So for me, sometimes the fear of being hurt led me to push someone away who would never have hurt me.

So be careful about pushing people away...while still protecting yourself...because you and your health and well being are still the most important thing.

I did the same thing that Kdd did and I think I hurt people. I learned that just telling someone I'm having a bad day and I need some time alone helps, especially when I'm feeling most irrational.

I'm also in a relationship and I'm bipolar, so it can be done. There just has to be a lot of love and patience!

Confused When you pushed people away , did you go back and did they take you back?
In my case it was the other way around?

Totally. Part of you is like, "Get them away from me they are suffocating me!," or "Get away from you, I want you to be hurt!" It's sort of a borderline behavior too. The push/pull cycle. But definitely in the throes of mania you can push people away with no regard for their feelings, thinking they are replaceable or isolate yourself (which is pushing people away) because you feel depression coming on. It sucks, for me - I try to stay mindful of my actions. If I know my depression is coming back and that I will invariably isolate/alienate, I try to tell my friends in a very mild way that "hey, I'm not feeling well. I miss you and want to hang, but just not now."

But it's hard to be mindful during mania - I've found though that just maintaing a more ethical/compassionate mindset helps - like the golden rule.