I'm having a horrible day.

I SIed with a steak knife a couple of days ago, and as a result my brother locked up my medication while he went out for the night, for fear that I would OD. (Of course, I was able to take out enough meds to last me the night and next morning)

He PROMISED to come back to school the next day, so he could take my meds out again, but his alarm messed up, and he missed the bus. He's in a rural area right now, so he can't get back to school until tomorrow morning. I NEED my meds each time, or else I turn into a twitchy nervous wreck.

Now I'm forced to go to the hospital, to ask if I can have just enough meds to last until he gets back. The hospital triggers me LOTS, because of past hospitalizations on the psychiatric floor. I feel like crying, screaming, throwing things, falling into a permanent sleep... I don't want to go but I know I need to.

I guess I just wanted to get all of this out there, so somebody could listen.

[Trippin2.0]

Thinking of u melissa! Hope u feel better s00n hun.

[wing]

Melissa, I hope you feel better soon.

Thinking of you, Melissa.

[venusss]

Sending positive vibes.

[onlymedid]

Thinking of you, too. Hoping you can get the meds you need ASAP!!! *HUGS*

[unico]

I'm sorry you are struggling so much! I hope you get the meds you need (in the dose you need them, of course).

Thanks so much for the support everyone.
It took me 10 HOURS of waiting in the emergency room before I finally got the medication (enough for the night and the next morning). They also made me an appointment on Monday with a psychiatrist to consult about my medication - see if we need any changes.
I also have an appointment next week with a crisis worker, just to check in and see how I'm doing.

So I have some more support now. Hopefully I'm feeling better soon. Thanks again everyone!

[Trippin2.0]

Glad you've g0t s0me supp0rt. Hope everything levels out, thinking of u my friend! XOXO