[teresapooh98]

I have been having a hard time this past week. Recently I have been seeing and hearing things lately but not a lot. This is kind of knew to me. I am a little paranoid and just not feeling myself. I am kind of freaking out a little but staying calm for my family because I don't want them to know how bad I feel. I just hope when I start my period that all these symptoms will get better and that I feel better. I just hate how I feel. I have not been sleeping well because of my nightmares and waking up like every hour to thoughts in my mind to thinking I heard something. This has to stop.

[BlackPup]

sorry that things are not good at the moment. REmember that they will get better. Maybe your meds need adjusting, can you talk with your pdoc???
YOu are not alone, we are here for you.

[teresapooh98]

My pdoc is also my therapist. I saw her yesterday and told her how i felt so we did some med adjustments but all this is contributed to my period. I haven't started yet so as it keeps prolonging I am afraid I will keep getting worse. I am also afraid that i might end up in the hospital. I just want to cry. I am seeing her again today and tomorrow. I walked up to get my blood work done which was a 20min. walk as i kept waking my paranoia and anxiety kept rising and I had to have my mom come pick me up. Sometimes it just doesn't seem worth it to go on but I know it is.

Well it sounds like your doing the right things, hopefully you will get this all sorted out with the meds. I hear and see things frequently, I know that can be a bit unnerving and also contribute to the paranoia

I know it can feel like it's soo not worth it right, but it really is. Good to hear that your Pdoc/T is keeping an eye on things.

[teresapooh98]

I saw my pdoc today and as I was telling her what happened she told me that i was having a panic attack which i have never really experienced so it was all new to me. With how I am feeling ie paranoid, having hallusinations(hearing and seeing things that are not there), panic attacks and so forth. She said that I needed to be admitted to the hospital so tomorrow I will give them a call and once they get everything okayed from the insurance company and have a bed I will be going in tomorrow Friday June 10th.

[Confusedinomicon]

Teasapooh, try not to see this as a bad thing. Look at what you've accomplished with your willpower. YOU had the strength to tell the doctor of your symptoms. YOU had the strength to AGREE to a hospitalization. They can't force you unless she has proof that you'll cause harm onto yourself. If anything, you've shown that you have strength and want to get better. Hospitalizations aren't necessarily bad things.

Try to focus on yourself and getting well and I'm sure the experience will be worthwhile. I don't know if you want hugs so I'm sending hearts your way! <3333333333