inpatient hospitalization?

Hi everyone,
I'm kinda struggling right now, mainly due to depression, but also with psychotic features. I had an appt with my pdoc a couple days ago and told him some of the stuff that was going on in my life, and long story short he wanted to put me in the hospital. I all but begged him not to put me in, mainly because I have my kids this weekend and I wanted to see them. But lately I have been really depressed. He switched a few meds around and I'm waiting for that to start working. He told me to call him if things get really bad and if I'm in danger of harming myself...I think I might be to that point but I don't really want to go to the hospital again. Yes it usually helps me out, but right now I'm not so sure I want the help. I'm just so confused with everything. I don't know what to do. I've got alot of pro's and con's to going and not going. And on top of that I don't think I could even afford it. I just don't know if I should go in and get help, or just give up...
Any suggestions? And thanks for listening to me ramble on.

If you are thinking of harming yourself, you should go to the hospital.
Especially if you are supposed to see your kids this weekend. Do you want them to see you this way?

Go get the help you need.

Please go into the hospital. If you're not willing to go into the hospital it's probably not a good weekend for your children to be with you, so find a friend or family member to spend the weekend with you, so he or she can help out with taking care of the children and make sure you stay safe.

I've been where you are...knowing what to do...but rebeling against it...denying it's gotten to that point. I feel it...remember going to the hospital is not defeat...its a time to draw that line in the sand and say enough...right?

Here's another vote for the hospital. It's hard to do, but once I'm there, I realize that it was the right decision. ((gentle hugs))

Well I talked myself into going to the hospital, mainly because of the advice I received from all of you. Thank you very much for helping me with this tough choice. I don't want to go in, but you guys are right it is probably the best thing for me to do to get myself better. If not for me, then for my kids. Thanks again.

Good job - proud of you for doing this.

I agree with everyone else...you need to be healthy and care for yourself (getting meds adjusted etc.) I know when Ive had issues in the past and even now I do not care for my children and family like I should...I just cant and they suffer because of it. Know what i mean? So for me being hospitalized had to happen.

Thanks for letting us know quicksilver. I hope you start feeling like yourself soon.

Good choice Silver!! We'll be here awaiting a post when you return. *hugs*

I hope it is a 'good' trip for you, and that you're back again soon. Well done for putting yourself first and looking after yourself.