Boredom again

I've had a very busy past 7 or more days. I needed a guilt free day of rest, and wanted to get some productive things done at home. I haven't done anything and I have to show the house to some decorators at 8:30am tomorrow morning. It's a wreak. Husband sprung a dinner party on me yesterday morning, and it got bigger as the day went on, and dwindled just before hand. Two dinner parties, friends and family over, and still trying to move into this house is overwhelming. Today I'm avoiding everything. Doing just the minimum to get by. I found a Bipolar group that meets on Tuesdays near my house. I kinda want to go...I kinda don't. I guess that's why I'm posting here. I guess I don't really have boredom...I have avoidance, and I'm home with all the kids and my husband is at work and hasn't called today. Sigh.......I'm Lutheran, and I even looked up "How to get rid of bipolar spells" today. There aren't any...just so you know. LOL I try to pray it away all the time. I even pray that it goes away for everyone of us. It just doesn't seem fair I guess. Somebody said it on here a few days ago, and I related. ... I want a new brain. I also looked up hospitals today...cause if I ever have to go...I want to be the one to pick it out. Didn't find one yet. But I'll still keep looking. Wishing you all the best in this. I'd say I felt fine and happy today...but maybe I'm not. LOL

I try to "pray it away" too. You aren't alone

I like that: "avoidance" vs boredom. That is a much better description of how I am most of the time.