Psychosis and New treatment

i stayed at a friends last night, because i'd missed the last train home, we'd had a few drinks and we went to bed. fell asleep, i woke up and there were 5 men stood round my bed, so i told them to get out, Viki (my friend) woke up and found me having a full blown argument with someone that wasnt there. I got very upset as to why she wasnt telling them to go. i dont remember what happened next, but we went to hospital, and i was sat in the relatives room, i opened the door and it was busy outside, then Viki commented how weird it was for the hospital to be so silent, i didnt say, that i could see loads of people, because i had calmed down and realised i was close to being admitted.
They got the on call psych team down to me and they assessed me, i'm not a danger to myself or anyone else, and i said that the psychosis had gone, even though at the time, i still believed the people i could see were really real but knw if i said that they would make me stay there, i thought it was a trick to get me admitted. Now i've been home and had a long sleep, and woken i realise i was hallucinating, i'm so petrified of it happening again.

I'm seeing my support worker on Tuesday, i've never had proper psychosis before.

I'm so scared that i'm on a downward slope and that soon my life as i know it wont be there anymore. I've always lived life like someone without mental illness and coped, but if stuff like this becomes more frequent i wont be able to. I like how my life is and i dont want it to change, but there isnt really anything i can do to prevent it.

On Tuesday i'm starting a new treatment called EMDR, does anyone know anything about this or has anyone had it? Its for anxiety and OCD i think.

I have never heard of that treatment before, but just wanted to let you know that I am so sorry you are going through this difficult stuff right now.

I would get in to see my pdoc asap. Are you on any antipsychotics?

No i'm not, they tried to put me on seroquel this morning, but i pointed out that i'd actually like to see some of August. Which i know sounds like i was being rude, but i was pretty worked up that point.
I'm Lamictal at the moment, because i dont actually suffer from psychosis, its only been very minor in the past, more extreme anxiety more that anything.
I'm going to bed soon, i've got my 5 year old brother in my bed tonight because i'm so scared, he doesnt know that though obviously.

So you refused the Seroquel?

Yeah, i have work tomorrow, and i cant afford to not go, or not be able to concentrate properly while i'm there.

Ask your pdoc for another one. I take Abilify and it has helped me so much. It is also weight neutral and doesn't make you tired.

Yes i think that may be the way forward. Does it stop it completely or just reduce it?

For me, Abilify has stopped it in it's tracks.

Good Luck!

Psychosis is very, very scary and you don't know you are going through it until someone tells you what happened or you realize it after the fact.

I would definitely try Abilify because I don't want you to have to go through this ever again.

I am on 15 mg. I used to be on 30 mg the maximum dose, but went down to 15 mg to see how I do and so far so good.

The drinks may have played a role in your experience. All my docs tell me to stay away from drinking on my meds. Fortunately I found the strength to hold off so not really sure if it would have that kind of impact or not. Just a thought.

Hope all gets better for you

I have frequent hallucinations. I haven't found an antipsychotic yet that really makes it stop, but I hear a lot of positives about abilify. I would defiantly give it a try. I hope this ends for you soon. I know how scary it can be. And the scary feeling of worrying about it become more and more.

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If your hallucinations are that severe, you really should see about finding the right antipsychotic. I know it sounds daunting, as I know I lost quite a bit of my self-assurance with the thought that I would need a medication to stop being psychotic... Just the way it sounds isn't nice. But I say taking a pill to make the hallucinations go away/lessen in severity is a lot better than constantly questioning the world around you, wondering if it is real or not. Being someone with moderate hallucinations & an overly-analytical mind, I can attest to this first hand. Best of luck to you, girl.

I feel so weird about it now. I just want to sleep, i'll talk to my support worker tomorrow about abilify, they talked about putting me on it a long time ago, i'm on lactimal already, does anyone take those together?
I drink a lot, (once a week but its alot,) and nothing like this has happened before, but i know i need to stop drinking, when i'm not feeling good in the first place, i'm fine on alcohol when my mood is stable, but i have to refrain when its not and i know i do.

How scary that must have been for you! I have never experienced hallucinations but the thought of it scares the hell out of me! Sending you lots of luv and hugs

Thank you! It wasn't fun!

My current cocktail is Abilify 20mg, Seroquel 100 mg, Lamictal 300 mg and Vyvanse 100 mg. After I was on Abilify for 3 years, I started hearing voices ... again. That was the reason for Seroquel which I find to be pretty sedating, but am getting used to it. It took me about 4 months to adjust to Abilify. It caused me extreme restlessness for which I took Cogentin, and made me feel quite medicated. The Lamictal helped that. I would advise taking Abilify before bed. Of course, everyone is unique and what works for one may not work for another. That said, you have to be patient with these drugs. Good luck!