giving up

Here comes another low in my Saphris treatment! It works so well when it works. Today I am full of anxiety and on the edge of tears. I'm afraid to be alone. I live alone so that really helps. I was out with my son yesterday looking at cars. I need one and it seems important at times and other times I just don't care. So the no pleasure in things is kicking up too. I am so tired of this disease. It hurt my family, (my son) espescially and myself. If I didn't have my son I probably wouldn't be typing. He is 23 so not like I am caring for him. I have people who care but don't understand or don't know how to help. Hell I don't know how to help my damn self. If these dips keep happening with the saphris I will be at the maximum dose in no time. Then what? Nothing has ever worked so well so fast. I hate the lows, anxiety, and the whole hate to be alone thing (which makes the anxiety worse!). Guess I just needed to get my inner voice out, sorry for anyone else I might have braought down.

Redtape, please don't give up. These episodes do pass in time. They always do.

I hate this quote but I am going to say it anyhow, "This too Shall Pass".

If you have to be on the highest dose of Saprhis, then so be it. If it will help you, there is no harm in going on the full dose.

All episodes of this disorder do pass with time. You just have to hang in there. I know it's easier said than done, but please believe me, it will pass.

Red, everyone responds differently meds. Perhaps the higher dose will level you out even more. Personally I expect my moods levelled out but not totally under control. The price of a flat apathy isn't worth it. I don't want to be zombied out but stable at that level.

i am far from being zombied out...i too like the smallest effective dose. However like i have said this med fixed everything in a jiffy. I feel like the guy in awakenings. I don't know if I can go back as I was.

Journal about these episodes and discuss it with your T and pdoc when you next see them. Maybe you can add a different med to help too; instead of just increasing the one?

As was said-these episodes do pass. Keep posting here - I know this site offers a lot of support and has helped me through some tough times