What's on Your Mind Today?

You know, I am just thinking I am going to take it easy today and not do a damn thing. The last two days I have been running everywhere and doing too many things, so I say **** it and I am not going to do a damn thing today, except dust the tables in the livingroom if I really feel like doing it.

If I don't then screw it.

What's on your mind today?

that i don't want to go home from my trip. i don't even want to go back to EU...even if i love Italy. But it will feel too safe and regulated. I actually enjoy how little human life means here in Albania... because they may be right when it comes to it. Life itself is worthless and if you cannot handle living without being babied... well...

yes, it is scary and sad... but that is the reality.

life in the west makes too much sense. or too little at times.

Hmmm, a lot. Mind has been racing that is why I am on here. Thoughts of wanting a new tattoo and/or a monroe piercing. Wishing I could lose weight like over night. How some things in life are so just GRRRR. Wondering how we are gong to make ends meet. Wondering if I can pull through this mania until my next pdoc appt. The list can go on and on but I will not bore you with it .

I am thinking about how I spent sooo much money and that I hope I will not be manic much longer.:\

Hoping I can shed my extra 1.5kg
Need to sort my finances, as I have lent money, have debit orders to sort out, credit cards to transfer money into, cash to deposit...
Find someone to lease my horse by 1 Oct or sell him
Going away for 5 days on Sunday on company conference. VERY stressful - no bf, no routine, far drive, lonely
Hoping to leave work early to ride my horse
Do I take my internal job offer, or leave to join my bf's company?

I'm having a blood test in 2 hours. Then I'm going to make myself go for a walk because this fading has gone for too long and today I can see a small crack in the shadows. Maybe it's time for a push so that I can finally catch up with pressing matters...Moving in two weeks and still don't know how!

I'm loving the fact that I'm covered in filth, lost almost 10 pounds in 3 days, have money again, and only have one shift left til I get 4 days off to sort things out and get back on track.

Sugahorse, that sure is a lot that you have on your mind, lol.
I hope you sort everything out.

Oh sugahorse, I really do hope you find a way to keep your horse. I know the horse means a lot to you. Crossing my fingers for you.

Mind is pretty numb this morning. Thinking I need to get out and mow, but I probably won't due it. Too damn hot even this early. Be glad when mowing season is over. Maybe I should just go back to bed.

Will keep the other. And he'll keep me going

Didn't know you had more then one, that is good you will get to keep one of them. Still heartbreaking to part with our animal friends.

It sure is dragonfly. We just lost our cocker spaniel to cancer and we are heartbroken.

i decided that spending my b-days away from home means I am not aging. So it is not like I will be the dreaded 27 soon... and that i would have to settle down and all those terrible things.

looked up if there are jobs in kosova by the UN or something. Not at the moment.

well have one more year to think things through.

I'm so sorry to hear that. Pets really are members of our families, so the loss of one can be tragic.

I will keep you in my thoughts.

Thanks so much for that aquaman. We have his ashes in an urn with a pic of him on it. We also have his footprint that we got casted in clay hanging on our livingroom wall.

Erm... yet again I am feeling manic and just wanna scream. I am meeting this guy who is 12 years older than me possibly tomorrow.... I am anxious and nervous and excited and hyper and well everything else in between. What am I doing?

Be careful Miss Laura. When I was 21 or 22, I went out with a 34 year old man, and all he wanted was sex so I refused. I remember him pulling into a parking lot and he told me that I made him feel less than a man because I refused to have sex with him.

That was it. I broke up with him right on the spot. I mean really, it was our 2nd date together.

Thanks SunAngel,

I will we have decided meeting tomorrow and if we both get on well then we will take it further