I Don't Know

It's hard to describe how I'm feeling right now...

The past few days I've struggled with waking up in the morning, then going back to sleep instead of staying up like I should. Sometimes I'd rather just stay in bed and pass the time with sleep. I didn't wake up until 2pm today, much later than I should have.

I've been avoiding doing school work although I know I need to be working on it. I feel sort of numb, I suppose.

I don't know if this is the start of depression, sometimes it's hard for me to tell. I hope not. I hope this is just a short period of "blah" days that will go away soon.

I'm not questioning life, or thinking of self-harm or suicide. In the past, these would have been my first choices. Now they are not even close to being options. So I'm not in any danger, by any means. Just feeling a little out of it, a little numb.

I understand how u feel and just want to offer you s0me hugs and encouragement. I pray you smile again so0n. XOXO

I've been doing nothing for a week! I don't have the negative thoughts- hopeless, helpless, etc ..so my Tdoc said..."you're tired, no you're exhausted from 6 weeks of mania" and she's right I just have no energy or motivation, but I'm just gonna role with it and not freak myself out about it. Tomorrow I have errens to run and groceries to get, but that will be the first thing I do, since going to the doc the other day.

Try not to worry if you're thoughts are ok, then you also are probably just tired.

Yeah, I've been numb after med changes. In that initial period before they can really do anything but I guess the chems are having some effect.

If it's not chem/med related, I'd guess you'd want to try to be really alert to any drowsiness or inability to wake up fully. If that comes, probably ought to let pdoc know. Sometimes meds you've been on can start to act differently because of other chemical changes going on.

.recovering is good. I'm a recovering alcoholic AWA bipolar. Life has good times though hidden sometimes. Worth looking for, in my experience.